Thank God and thankful for catching my business partner/mentor at the top seat looking fed up and not replying to my WhatsApp message whether she has reached the talk.
Thank God to meet my business mentor’s friend again whom she is helping. Glad for the amazing courage to immediately ask his business card. It’s like a prayer answered. Though he helps me to see the local media business sector is not good, I gently disagree. When he explains that the technology is driving animation, I disagree too. That shows he doesn’t understand about media. The way she chooses to let him does the talking clearly shows her rejection. He says that he shares his opinion to her friend on Frugal Innovation talk. It is not good enough because he has been in the professional trading industry for many years. She can’t accept it because she finds it good. Though I find it good, I’m okay to hear from another perspective. From him, I begin to see my business mentor’s role in his business. Her role is to talk to the banker. There is no partnership agreement.
After the talk, my business mentor brings her sister in Christ to the nearby Admin building. There she explains the adjustment process to wear high heel shoes and not to walk long hours. Because I tell her that I have a sprain and fall thrice on my way to Frugal Innovation talk. She is about to call her career consultant about the MacBookAir charger due to I can’t find it. Until there is tugging to call house. When dad sees the charger, I am reminded that yesterday I take it out of my bag due to taking my water bottle out. Oh no! Thank God that she hasn’t called her career consultant. When I ask her on her business partner’s Chinese name in his namecard, she harshly tells me to check it from the dictionary.
After the innovation talk, my business mentor introduces someone from a job search who gladly offers his help to assess my unique values to contribute to the company. So at night, I write a draft email and send it to my business mentor for correction. She replies, “Email is fine. Independence is writing yourself without relying on me.” It sounds angry to me so I ask her, “Why do you sound angry to me? Did I make you angry?” Her reply is, “This what I meant by independence in my WhatsApp last night.” I am speechless for her not to answer my question. Why? I can sense the rejection from her. Why am I always tossed around? O Lord, please have mercy on me.
Sounds to me like you need a new business mentor. Sorry, but she treats you terrible.
Is it? I just don’t understand. There are times, she gives me the listening ear and cares a lot. There are times, she is so harsh in her judgments. I don’t know. I just leave it to Jesus.
You sound as if she hurts your feelings. There is no excuse for that.
That’s due to my lack in communication skill.
There is no reason for her to hurt your feelings and she should be helping you with your lack in communication if it is a factor in her feelings towards you. And as a mentor that should be part of her job, to help you, not hurt you.
She has been pulling her hair Whenever I have been trying to understand my words. Upon understanding it, she explains the correct words. So there is so much misunderstandings 😞 Strangely I feel so depressed when I am misunderstood.
I gather you are not speaking in your native tongue. Is it English you are having trouble understanding what she says? Does she speak your language. Could she tell you what you do wrong if it is wrong in your own language so you understand? Sounds like a language barrier problem.
Yea. I’m not speaking in my native tongue. Half understand in what she says. I often misunderstand her. When I speak, I didn’t start the sequence clearly. My problem also. May the Lord can enable me to overcome my autism.
I am not real familiar with autism. I will pray that the Lord can help you with that. Maybe you can find someone else to help you practice your English.
She is the one.
Sorry!
Don’t worry. Thank you for your kind concern.
You are welcome!
🙂
that’s not anger, she has confidence in you. She knows you’re ready.
Huh?
“Email is fine. Independence is writing yourself without relying on me.”
she knows you’re ready. that’s not rejection. rejection is your childhood friend saying “can’t you tell you’re not wanted”
Maybe. Hope so.
Yoshiko, praying with you for wisdom and understanding! God bless you, little sister!
Thank you Maria!
Yoshiko, don’t berate yourself too much.Take it as a learning point in your career. Try to see the positives in her words and not the harshness and negatives. Praying for you. 🙂
Thank you