Silence with unfamiliar people
Attraction towards pets
Being lost in own world
Termed as being shy
Overwhelmed with sensory overload
Anxiety and fear deep inside
Masking with expressionless face
Pouring out my hearts to Jesus
Seeking to overcome own challenges
Observing and smile to babies and pets
Inspiration On: Saturday, 22 April 2017 at 8:11am
I divulge my autism issue with friends whom I feel comfortable with. My struggle is in communication. Socializing with strangers is not a problem. It depends on whom I feel comfortable to talk to. My friends label me as being introvert and shy. Am I shy? That’s my question.
I do not understand myself. Seeking to have self-understanding. Last year, the autism diagnosis had tested me positive. It created mixed feelings – fearful, upset, relief. “Why You Cannot See My Daughter’s Autism?” news help me to have a better understanding of myself.
Everyone has escalating demands
Laundry shouts at me
Wash! Spin! Dry! Hang!
Computer seeks my attention
Emails are calling out to me
Open ME! Read ME!
Child also seek immediate attention
Play with ME! Accompany ME!
Husband expects more
Manage the household! Manage others!
Parents expect serving them
Give immediate help
In laws expect control over me
Jobs providence come
Freelance work client seeks attention
Put client the first
Self-expectation desire to excel in life
Fall short of all
Life’s workload bogs me down
True friends come into my life
Angels lift me up
Confusion is cleared
See with more clarity
Agree to disagree
Learn to speak indirectly
Inspiration On: Saturday, 26 April 2014 at 3:35am
Revised On: Monday, 30 January 2017 at 10:30pm
It began with the first third and eleventh stanza. As I return back to revise further, I pour out more of my overwhelming feelings. Thus the title change from “Life’s workload bogs me down” to “Life’s demands and expectations”. Wish you all have good days and thank you.