Thursday’s Doors ~ Stratford on the Whetstone, part 2

When do we become the “salt of the earth”?

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The grass so green evokes imaginary

memories of farming, milling,

with families living in close-knit

industrious community.

Sacred ground, when people were

“the salt of the earth.”

As I had noticed Dutch symbols

upon the barn, the total setting

leaves purposeful, productive

lasting impressions

upon my mind.

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Photo taken by Robin,

simple story of monthly

passage by this beautiful

pastoral setting by her, too.

Although not a door on this post,

I would like to remind visitors

to check out other doors,

Norm Frampton, cordial

host’s blog located at:

http://miscellaneousmusingsofamiddleagedmind.wordpress.com

Hope y’all enjoyed a little history

and could smell the clover, grass

and rich soil of Delaware, OH land!

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Mess

A cell leader mentioned the meaning of mess is taking drugs, involved in gang fight and other social issues. 

Thus I want to clarify that my mess means literally mess. 

One of my room table is messy

Organise things until I can’t find own thing

Why Do Girls Show Signs of Autism Later Than Boys?Written by Dan Gray

Things are confusing especially in social situations. The article Why Do Girls Show Signs of Autism Later Than Boys? helps to have a better self-understanding. The reason the characteristics and diagnosis show up later age in girls. 

Is it due to women are created differently than men? Based on my interactions with other women, a strong women still wish to be protected by their husbands. Confessions of my personal experiences are 😳

1. In the poetry social group, I begin to pick up poetry. 
2. A classmate whom I like enjoys coding, I learn to pick up the skills. 
3. Getting married due to pressure from my parents.
4. Care the weak for my Lord Jesus becomes my motivating factor.  
5. Learn art better from teachers and friends.
6. Sensing certain feelings after interacting with certain people. (I happen to meet a longtime friend. Suddenly, after confiding she angrily purging out foul words. After we part our ways to home, foul words talking in my head. So I quickly reject it in the name of Jesus. Listen to worship songs help me.)
7. Worshipping God through their acts of kindness attract me to the persons. 😳 

Upon knowing my weaknesses, I choose to be careful in whom I spend my time. Because I don’t want to lose myself. I want the Holy Spirit to be with me. 

Pie Pit

Throw me into the pit
Where I can create my pie

Give me the pit of well
How to produce the pie of focus

Pit is where I put in time to focus
Pie is where I put in effort without distraction

Pit of well is a space without distraction
Pie is the final result of many efforts

Enter into the focused pit of well
Work towards the pie of focus

Check the pit before jumping into the well
Prevent unnecessary pie from being produced

Prevent mind block
Reduce the stress level

Pit of
Environment and Space to pour Time and thought

Pie of
Enthusiastic Energy of Efforts

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Inspiration On: Wednesday, 3 May 2017

“Put in time and effort” are the words I need to take action on. However, there is a sudden inspiration to find its acronym. Thus PIT and PIE birth out. I liken PIT into a well and space. Because I realise that I need the space and environment to focus on the work I need to do. Environment plays a huge role on my focus. Thus I put many efforts at home, the potential and abilities that God blesses me can’t flourish. PIE I’d liken to a pie where many ingredients are mixed together to produce a pie. Thus playing the different alphabets from PIT and PIE can be a tremendous and interesting result. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Crossroad of Choices

At the crossroad of choices
Surrounded by mountains of career paths
Weighing the beginning and destination
Time to make decisions
Make frantic effort to adjust time
Energy tank signaling rapid depletion
Realizing distraction through humans
Asking the Lord for help through human guidance and discipline
Seeking His intervention

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Inspiration On: Friday, 28 April 2017

The piles of work I have been doing seems daunting. Countless attempt to stand up. Loneliness sets in. I have been pouring out to God for someone whom I can discuss with. The budget I come out with is over-budget. I feel so powerless. Doing work slow me down. I feel so thankful to God to do part-time work as a teacher. The Lord knows that I am learning to manage myself and have issue to manage the students. He knows my fear of being bullied. Today I ask my lead instructor how to sound firm. He feels that I should know when I sound firm. Oh, I feel so speechless. I can feel that my energy depletes rapidly. Is it due to me learning to manage 40 students in an hour? Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Overwhelmed Meltdown to Burn Out – A Poem – Guest Blog

I have been following AnonymouslyAutistic blog. Recently, I have been busy with part-time work and attempt to manage my time but to no avail. Burnt out and meltdown have been occurring on and off. An autistic shares his life experiences. Thus I feel challenged to organise my meltdown experiences. I feel the joy of sharing my experiences to the world and to bring awareness to others.

Easy Escape

Such feelings happen to me too.

Later on, I reach out to my Lord and Saviour.

Poetry On A Roll

When I don’t feel like
fighting, talking, yelling, crying…
I shut down
and escape into my mind.
It’s a maze inside
so there is always
a new rock to hide under.

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Girls’ Invisible Autism

Internalized feelings
Silence with unfamiliar people
Attraction towards pets
Being lost in own world
Termed as being shy

In silence
Overwhelmed with sensory overload
Anxiety and fear deep inside
Masking with expressionless face
Pouring out my hearts to Jesus
Seeking to overcome own challenges
Observing and smile to babies and pets

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Inspiration On: Saturday, 22 April 2017 at 8:11am

I divulge my autism issue with friends whom I feel comfortable with. My struggle is in communication. Socializing with strangers is not a problem. It depends on whom I feel comfortable to talk to. My friends label me as being introvert and shy. Am I shy? That’s my question.

I do not understand myself. Seeking to have self-understanding. Last year, the autism diagnosis had tested me positive. It created mixed feelings – fearful, upset, relief. “Why You Cannot See My Daughter’s Autism?” news help me to have a better understanding of myself.

AFCC Super Short Story Competition

Our dear friend, fellow website ministry contributor is submitting for writing competition. Will you all please read her personal story by visiting the given site?

Thank you for all your support.

Autism is a Controversial Issue – People Fighting Online

I don’t like to be treated with pity. Therefore, in the physical world, I choose not to divulge my autism. So that they can treat me like normal people. However, I disagree with those people with nasty words.

Now, I can accept my autism. After reading a book to understand myself, I can accept my autism and treat it as a gift.

I’m glad to be able to meet Autistic Anna to enable to have a better self-understanding in terms self-care in mental, physical and psychological health.

Personally, I agree with Anna in her last paragraph that I can’t reason with people who only cares about their own opinions.