Currently, I have been taking classes to improve my skills to find work.
Thus, I have been missing blogging my hearts out.
However, I would like to thank my faithful followers, and the new followers.
I am so grateful for your kind patience and faithfulness.
Thank you for all your kind encouragements.
A cell leader mentioned the meaning of mess is taking drugs, involved in gang fight and other social issues.
Thus I want to clarify that my mess means literally mess.
One of my room table is messy
Organise things until I can’t find own thing
Delayed ADHD, autism diagnoses can hurt girls article reminds me of happened and current situation. My mother and even friends give me honest feedback. I tend to jump from one topic to another topic. As stated in the article, Halvorson mentioned “It takes all of my energy to focus, and I find myself flying around from one thing to another”. I do so due to feel that the topic is related to the topic from past experiences. However, I have problems in creating the connection. Currently, I do get distracted a lot especially in my marriage life.
I agree with Halvorson that my experiences give me more empathy. I’m surprised from the C-Vat test that my empathy level is too high – 9 out of 10. It helps me in terms of relating to others.
I am interested to interact socially and receive the compliment of being a good listener. Because I tend to listen and very quiet. Though I try to communicate, I communicate more through actions and words. Liebe highlighted that girls with autism tend to have better underlying communication skills. They’re able to show empathy and social interest, which deflects easy diagnosis.
I have been attempting to fit in but having difficulty to do so. I embarassly admit that I don’t care about fashion. I love to feel comfortable with the way I wear. My business mentor cum business partner highlight that I don’t care how I look like. I am literal in the way I speak. But I don’t know whether I am blunt in the way I express. I have trouble in being assertive so I unknowingly let others cross into my boundary. Now, I thank the Lord to be more assertive.
The psychologist looked at my academic grades and good work attitude testimonials. Then she asked many questions. Her diagnosis is that I have the autistic symptoms but different case. She asked me, “how do you survive?”
“Don’t know,” was my reply.
I think a lot on it and reflect.
If given second opportunity, I want to thank Jesus and the people who has been helping me a lot.
Wish you all have good days and thank you.
This Raising A Tween Who Has Autism Washington post helps to understand my parents and myself better. It also gives me a better perspective in the way I feel and navigate the world. I begin to understand the reason my parents are worried about me.
There is an intention to rename my blog with my friend. We are worried to lose the url of my links. Will we lose the url name due to renaming our wordpress site?
In the morning, I got a shock of my son’s high fever. I thank the Lord to keep me in peace through the power of the Holy Spirit while bringing my son to see doctor with my husband. Yes. He chose to give our son shower when my mum advised not to do so. That’s his mistake. I choose not to point. So in the morning, he looks concerned of our son’s well being by asking my opinion whether to see doctor or bring him to hospital. Instantly I ask his opinion. He chooses to go to the clinic. Then I let him decide. Does he realize the consequences of his actions towards our son? Once we have visited the doctor, my cell members introduce certain food to reduce our son’s fever through external use. I share this to my husband. He mocks such method due to scientists have not proven it. He laughs mockingly at my friends. Then he can even mentioned I don’t know about medical approach. That can show he only cares his own opinion. Not all written researches are correct. Nowadays, every medical content tend to disagree each other. I have been learning and applying about Google in content marketing in website development. I understand this issue better.
I apologize for not realising WordPress answer from its support app.
I have tried it and it doesn’t work.
Oh no! Oh no! Why do I say, “I can understand KJV better”? Lord, do I really say that? My business mentor and my cell leader heard it. How come I forget? Normally, I don’t forget on what I have said. So I clarify with her. She explains, “You insisted on using KJV which baffles us. It is very frustrating and difficult to mentor someone who is not humble enough to want to learn and insist her own ways. You said you enjoy reading it like poetry in psalm.”
I answer relating to my past, “Before I use NIV with my ex-mentor then KJV. Then I read other versions.”
“Bible is the breath of God who speaks to us and helps to know who He is. It is not about reading poetry.” She explains.
I reply, “Sorry. Yes. Bible is the breath of God.”
“I don’t even use KJV for it is not easy to grasp let alone you!!” She exclaims.
I explain myself, “Before I have been attending Christian arts group. Most of them are poets. Maybe I caught their bug.”
“How to mentor you if you ‘stubbornly’ insist your ways!!!” She raises her voice.
I am confused, “Huh?”
“Bible is not poetry. And you are not even a poet.” She insists her own perceptions. Lord, I give up on her ready. Now, I begin to see the clearer picture. When my mother questions my helper, she replies so softly. I heard her soft reply. However, my mum didn’t hear it and scolded her. Now I begin to understand my position. Maybe I shouldn’t be with finance people, Lord.
I explain myself, “Now I am reading it again. Don’t you ever mention that my English needs improvement? I hope that can help me to improve my English.”
“Don’t you ever speak to me that way!!! Improve what English when you don’t even want to ask questions despite me advising you for months!!! Ask questions and find out before getting me insulted by that Malay hooligan and letting yourself being used by him. Yet you can still speak for him!!!” She raises her voice. That immediately makes me cry. No wonder my helper doesn’t want to continue her work. Lord, should I say the reason people misunderstand her?
Suddenly, I want her to wake up to her senses by sharing my current life situation. I begin, “I apologize for doing such mistake. And learn to correct myself.” Then I continue, “Now I have an issue with my helper. She insisted to return to her hometown. When my mother questions my helper, she replies so softly. I heard her soft reply. However, my mum didn’t hear it and scolded her. Now I begin to understand her position well enough. No wonder I feel the reason you sound like my mum.” Lord, should I tell her that IC and BL misunderstand her? They are offended by her too?
Suddenly, she sounds so angry, “I have enough of your bullshit. What’s the use of apology when you kept arguing with me despite me cautioning and advising you time and time again!!! And acted against my guidance.” This really hurts me so much.
Instead of being hurtful, I learn to explain myself in a nice way, “Does it mean I can’t even explain myself? Am I always being accused by everyone’s opinions?” Lord, I have enough of this too. Even I feel tired. She is so hurtful and too opinionated. Now, I begin to see the clearer picture, Lord. Suddenly, I remember that she shares happily to find a life partner. I can only end it nicely to her about my prayer for her, ” I’m glad and happy for you that you can find your life partner. I’m glad for the Lord to answer my prayer.” This is the problems between the older generation with the younger generation. Lord, she is so hurting. I have enough with her too.
I have been crying my heart out to the Lord. Thirsty and need the toilet. After I drink a cup of water, I enter into the bathroom. My eyes are red in bloodshot. Suddenly, there is A voice in my head speaking, “Don’t lose yourself over her.” I answer, “Yes, Lord.”
“If you miss me, just see my photo.” My son said this before he goes to his dad’s hometown.
My dad laughs and comments that my son sounds like an adult.
My cell leader laughs without giving any comments.
May I know all your perspectives in this?
Yoshiko 