Harsh Tone Hurts

My business partner is also my business mentor. Her tone and expression confuse me. Though I know she cares, her expression confuses me. So I learn to tell her that. But she judgmentally says I’m like her daughter in law to read her body language. I’m hurt to hear that. I don’t mean that. When she says that she has been telling me something in an angry tone, I realize that I can’t stand being antagonised.

I thought there is someone who wants to understand me and encourage me to speak up. But when I speak, I don’t feel accepted. Most likely, I can’t stand people who immediately jump to their conclusion. “Are you able to pay Olivia Loh Ing?” Her harsh tone hurts my heart awfully! It is so unwelcoming! It is not encouraging me to speak. It is so judgmental. It hurts me a lot, Lord. When I am prepared to come out with the little money I have, she seems to antagonize me. She feels that startups are supposedly to hire volunteers to do the animation project. This is distressing. Where should I go first? What should I do? Why do my brain reducing? Is it due to my family members always discourage me to work? Is it also due to my perpetual chronic migraine cause me to slowdown? I can sense from her tone that she feels she has been giving me ideas for the logo design. She feels that the three logo pictures she sends are the best from among all my researched logos. I’ve researched the how to design logo again. I never expect she also browses upon it and sends it to me. When she questions me about it, I feel speechless. I don’t know how to explain it in words. Yet she jumps to conclusion that I don’t do my research. This is so distressing. It hurts. Though I am thankful for her help, it’s so judgmental. I feel so lonely yet can only forgive her just as my Lord Jesus has forgiven me. Throughout my life, I feel so hurt. Is it due to I care too much? Is it due to forcing myself too hard? Why am I the one who often being put down? In the family and when I go out to find work and start to do business. My motto is to stand on my value and encourage others. I disagree in putting others down.

WordPress Reader

Do you ever feel something is lacking in wordpress? 

It will be great if there is another section to show the posts we follow and haven’t read. Because I do not want to miss out everyone’ posts. šŸ˜¤ 

Another problem is the missing reblog button! Obviously, this infuriates me for not being to reblog the posts! šŸ˜”

My friend is exploring storehouse app. Though she prefers wordpress more, she finds a good feature in it. Red dots with notifications show the unread followed posts. However, she feels it is better to have another tab to show red dots for those who like her posts and leave their comments. 

Do you agree with my opinions on wordpress? Do you ever hear about storehouse app?

Smelly Row Seat

On a Sunday morning, a sharp awful smell came out of nowhere. A lady who was sitting beside me asked my nose sense. Flap!! Flap!! So stinky! Flap!! Flap!! She rested her hands from flapping the newspaper. Then she flapped again. Her flapping eased the awful smell. And I could sense the flapped wind freshen the air pollution. However, such continuum action stirred the other listenersā€™ attention to her during the preaching. A pastor from behind approaches her. She immediately explained the place she sat stinks. However, the pastor didnā€™t hear it. So he called her. A minute had passed. She stood up and went behind to meet the pastor.

Let us see from different perspectives.

From the congregationsā€™ perspectives, it disturbed their time to listen to the preaching from the pulpit. They were utterly disrupted from their hearing focus.

The lady was concentrating on the preaching yet she needed to bear the smell. She bore the smell to the point of unbearable breathing. Opening her bag, she was looking for things to ease her nostril. A newspaper helped her to ease her pain. Thatā€™s the only thing for her to do so. Flapping it freshen the air and ease her breathing.

A pastorā€™s perspective felt that it disrupted the congregation. So he decided to approach her. However, he couldnā€™t hear her explanation and called her. She walked to him to explain herself. However, the people who sat at my row bore the stinky smell silently and quickly left.

What can we learn from here? Investigate the source of the smell. Stop hurting the congregation. Congregation and the church staff need to collaborate to solve the air pollution. Donā€™t let it continue. This can be likened to a sin that was not tackled. Once it becomes worse, itā€™ll affect everyone.

Please share your perspective on this issue.