Tick and delete
Two more tasks pop up
Happen again and again
Continuum process of my life
Endless vicious cycle
“Give up” echoes
Am I the problem?
Why is my productivity level low?
Inspiration On: Tuesday, 19 September 2017
I have reading books about productivity and taking notes. Buy the books and borrow it too. However, I feel so stuck. Instead of of focusing on my creative work, piles of work enters. It is regarding to the job I need to focus and other people’s help. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Listen to many perspectives
Enter into many perspectives
Experience many perspectives
Stuck in many perspectives
Pulled in many directions
Always changing directions
Stretch myself into many directions
Spread myself too thin
Here I stand
At the central of
Many opened circular doors
Overwhelmed with mountainous information
Overwhelmed with many new high mountains
Confusion sets in
To my Lord and Saviour
Clear my mind
Fix my perspective
Position my career direction
To the only direction
With the right environment
With the right people
Where respect, unity and teamwork dwells
Let me in tune with
Inspiration On: Saturday, 26 August 2017
Edited On: Tuesday, 29 August 2017
As I am deciding the path of my career, I feel so confused with many people’s opinions about the career I am choosing. Thus, hearing their perspectives, feelings and opinions affect me a lot. Thus birthing this poetry as I call to my Lord’s help before making any decision. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Simply being aware
To be more
Inspiration On: Monday, 31 July 2017
Edited On: Saturday, 12 August 2017
Living according to parents’ expectations can be good or bad. Some parents desire their will upon their child to stay at home. However, not every child can stand at home. Undermining the child’s authority brings disaster upon the child’s child mindset towards the mother. Being stuck in between is an excruciating pain. I agree some values but not all. Because some parents want to choose career for their children. I can’t accept such notions. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
At the crossroad of choices
Surrounded by mountains of career paths
Weighing the beginning and destination
Time to make decisions
Make frantic effort to adjust time
Energy tank signaling rapid depletion
Realizing distraction through humans
Asking the Lord for help through human guidance and discipline
Seeking His intervention
Inspiration On: Friday, 28 April 2017
The piles of work I have been doing seems daunting. Countless attempt to stand up. Loneliness sets in. I have been pouring out to God for someone whom I can discuss with. The budget I come out with is over-budget. I feel so powerless. Doing work slow me down. I feel so thankful to God to do part-time work as a teacher. The Lord knows that I am learning to manage myself and have issue to manage the students. He knows my fear of being bullied. Today I ask my lead instructor how to sound firm. He feels that I should know when I sound firm. Oh, I feel so speechless. I can feel that my energy depletes rapidly. Is it due to me learning to manage 40 students in an hour? Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Silence with unfamiliar people
Attraction towards pets
Being lost in own world
Termed as being shy
Overwhelmed with sensory overload
Anxiety and fear deep inside
Masking with expressionless face
Pouring out my hearts to Jesus
Seeking to overcome own challenges
Observing and smile to babies and pets
Inspiration On: Saturday, 22 April 2017 at 8:11am
I divulge my autism issue with friends whom I feel comfortable with. My struggle is in communication. Socializing with strangers is not a problem. It depends on whom I feel comfortable to talk to. My friends label me as being introvert and shy. Am I shy? That’s my question.
I do not understand myself. Seeking to have self-understanding. Last year, the autism diagnosis had tested me positive. It created mixed feelings – fearful, upset, relief. “Why You Cannot See My Daughter’s Autism?” news help me to have a better understanding of myself.
Everyone has escalating demands
Laundry shouts at me
Wash! Spin! Dry! Hang!
Computer seeks my attention
Emails are calling out to me
Open ME! Read ME!
Child also seek immediate attention
Play with ME! Accompany ME!
Husband expects more
Manage the household! Manage others!
Parents expect serving them
Give immediate help
In laws expect control over me
Jobs providence come
Freelance work client seeks attention
Put client the first
Self-expectation desire to excel in life
Fall short of all
Life’s workload bogs me down
True friends come into my life
Angels lift me up
Confusion is cleared
See with more clarity
Agree to disagree
Learn to speak indirectly
Inspiration On: Saturday, 26 April 2014 at 3:35am
Revised On: Monday, 30 January 2017 at 10:30pm
It began with the first third and eleventh stanza. As I return back to revise further, I pour out more of my overwhelming feelings. Thus the title change from “Life’s workload bogs me down” to “Life’s demands and expectations”. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Left and right
Intentionally slip his butt
Sitting up and down
Seat going up
Leaning with back
Falls onto his knees
Inspiration On: Thursday, 20 March 2014 at 4:30pm
Edited On: Monday, 30 January 2017 at 7:14pm
I was bringing my son to watch movie “Mr. Peabody & Sherman”. He had a hard time sitting quietly. In the end, he he moved his body around and stood up. My maid attempted to let him sit but to no avail. Thus he had a fall from the chair. Everybody laughed at him. Wish you all have good days and thank you.