Blessing in Willingness to Help

Lend my help
Dare not promise
High hopes of recovery
“I do my best”
Seeking God’s help

She initiates prayer for God’s intervention
Miracle of healing her only laptop
Amen to her prayers
Seeking the Lord’s hands upon it
Advise her laptop to the nearby service center
Her iPad slows down
His wisdom guides and leads me to speed it up

Her relieved look produces
My heart
Unexpectedly it solves my iPhone issues
God amazes me

Inspiration On: Friday, 18 March 2016

Today is such an amazing day. I feel so thankful to God and for today.

The discernment upon looking at Misa’s Sony Vaio laptop. Therefore I advise her to bring it to Sony service centre located at nearby mall. She initiates to pray for God to heal her laptop. So we pray together. Lord, please answer her prayer. In Yeshua’s name. Amen. Then she takes out her iPad Air 2. It slows down. Few apps only. So I advise her whether she is prepared for it to return to its original factory settings. She has no choice to do so. As I Google search it, I come across to restore to factory settings with MacBook. Amazingly, the Holy Spirit leads me to the part without computer. I go into the iPad Air 2 settings. Instead of resetting the content data and settings, I reset the settings. Out of sudden, her iPad Air 2 speeds up. Praise God! In the end, I feel compelled to apply it to my iPhone 5S. Upon resetting its settings, it stops prompting me that it runs out of space. God is amazing!

The animation school administrator sends me invoices and receipts. The school pays the remaining 10% of my school fees.

Overall, I feel so delighted to be of help to Misa. Through helping her, I get to know her better. Unexpectedly, my iPhone problem is also solved.

In the storyboard class, the teacher explains about children does their art through backward thinking. Somehow, it is lost upon reaching adulthood. I am surprised that I’m a “big kiddie” due to my backward thinking to solve problems. IC gives me such nickname. Again, he emphasises that he likes my drawing style. DB, my ex-client likes my style too. No wonder I feel so stifled at home. I feel being put down. No wonder my son also doesn’t like it. When he watches the television, my dad switches on the driller. Therefore, he complains that he can’t hear the television sound.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Help and Work

Seeking my help
Before I begin my job
Explain own experience on older computer
“Doing my best” attitude
Instead of bragging
Refuse to give high hopes
Trusting the Lord to bless the work of my hands

The more my parents probe on the interview
Sudden immediate reminder of
Past accomplishments
Speak out own fear in memorization subjects
Convict mum’s regrets
Dad confirms the course explanation
Skill and knowledge are important combination
The atmosphere turns well

Inspiration On: Thursday, 17 March 2016

Misa (my cell leader’s freelance hairdresser) begins to ask whether I know how to repair computer. Her computer is Windows 10. I want to help but unsure. So I tell her that I know how to repair Windows 8 and below. She doesn’t mind me to touch her three years Sony vaio laptop. She wants my help before I start my work. My migraine worsens. I need to listen to it to care my body. I want to say no. However, I feel that I need to help her. My heart gets the better of me again. So I choose tomorrow’s timing since she doesn’t see her messages.

During dinner with mum and dad, I begin to share on my doings and said in the interview. CMF lent me her computer repair books. It is acquired during her attending the computer repair course and acquired the certificate. I begin to confess that before I ever repair CMF’s computer. I can repair computer because I try it myself. Then I improve it by reading on those. Another confession is to teach her in programming logic. She said that she had passed it. I feel so happy. Then she confessed that she memorized it and amazingly it came out in her exam. So she wrote exactly on what I have written. I was shocked and glad the question came out. I understand about programming is because Supi and Mr. Tang explained the concept very well. Once I understand it, I choose programming subjects so that I can be exempted from memorization subjects.

Mum speaks out her regret again. If she knows earlier, she will let me stay at my own hometown to work with Supi who trains me. Too bad Supi went to another part of the country. Dad gives positive feedback that skill and knowledge goes hand in hand. They are shocked of CMF’s age same as my sister’s and husband’s age. Then I share what CMF said that she wishes JH and I to join her company. So that she can ask me on the computer skills she is lacking. Dad seems happy for me. It’s good if she and I can work together to complement each other. Then I am reminded of MLST that he points that all 5C combination are needed to reach higher position. I only manage to remember Character and Connection. Because I ask him, “Isn’t character more important than anything else?” He explains that all are needed. He reminds me of the Bible about the body. All the body parts are needed. Then I agree. I’m speechless. He also reminds me of KSA = Knowledge Skill Attitude. However, I remember it as ASK = Attitude Skill Knowledge. Hmm . . . What is God doing?

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Attitude from Actions

Dump fried noodles into the rubbish bin
Obvious of such wastage
Explain through body gesture
No food wastage is allowed
Still she throws her own meal

Give her rice
She cooks and consumes noodle
Give her noodle
She cooks and eats rice
Give her dishes
Only to be left untouched

The drawer of neatly organised bowls
Turn into a mess
Bowls are arranged untidily
Things are lost
Placed elsewhere
Instead of being put into its original position

The one who look up to himself
Able to communicate to her
Found the lost bathroom slippers
Tell him to ask her diets
That is the suggestion from an elderly
Letting the person eats own words

Through such actions
Inside feel uncomfortable with such person
Her actions gives the sense of
Bad attitude
Attitude is shown through actions

Inspiration On: Friday, 4 March 2016

The new maid (from another country) throws the fried noodle given to her. What type of food does she eats? We can’t communicate due to different countries. As the employer, my family stand of point is to befriend the new maid and provide her a good working environment. However, the actions prove different. We give her rice, she chooses to cook and eat noodle for her meal. When we give her noodle, she cooks and eats rice. Give her dishes, she doesn’t eat. My dad suggests to me to tell my husband about it. Since my husband is the one who chooses the maid from another country, let him does the talking. When I ask the maid where she keeps all the bathroom slippers, she doesn’t understand my gesture. However, when my husband asks, she understands and brings the slipper.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

P.S. I choose not to name the maid’s country of origin because different types of people exist in every race and country.

Part-Time Admin

Today is my first day for the part time admin job somewhere nearby my house. It is a job recommended by my business partner in a pharmaceutical company. The employer asks whether I am a graduate. Inside my heart, I am shouting, “Oh no! Do I look like a student?” Gently, I answered that I’m not, a stay at home mum and I am thirty-three years old. My business mentor’s words echo in my mind to be more observant. So I begin to observe the company’s vision, mission, pantry rules, printed motivations and even other certificates. That’s how business presentation are designed beautifully. I understand my purpose is to do work as into the Lord and to relieve the employer’s burden. I feel comfortable to do work when nobody is watching. When there is someone looking at me, I feel anxious and can’t work. Later on, during lunch time, we have a good conversation. I understand from her that my business mentor and her attended the same church. Then she moves to other church. Next, I explain to her about my freelance experiences in arts and programming. Then I confess I am starting own business to do children story with moral values through animation and books. Thank God for the courage. However, when I return home, my parents are curious and intend to tell me not to say it. Too late to say so. I thank the Lord to for the courage to say out. Who knows the Lord is opening a door to me to do media for His glory? Hallelujah. Now I begin to understand the Bible well enough stated in Ephesians 6:4, “fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.” It is so obvious that my dad is doing the same thing to his children. It was just the way his mother and elder brother didn’t permit him to further his studies. He listened to them wholeheartedly. Thus impedes the growth of his potential. I have done the same mistake to listen to him wholeheartedly and feel remorseful. I begin to understand the reason Jesus reveals Himself to me. I am the weakest among my siblings. He wants to break the generational curse. I realize my mistake to almost got into trouble in my previous business partnership and failing physical deterioration. That breaks my pride. I thank the Lord and appreciate my business mentor. I can sense His love through her acts of kindness and encouragement during my failing health. Yes! I want to use the media for the Lord. After better concentration and productiveness, I can feel hope and motivation to do the animation for the Lord. At times, I still sense His presence.

Strange that people often ask me to pray for them, the person to go to, confide in me, and even to help in their computers and smart phones. Strangely, yesterday RS sent me a message through Facebook on a track of his audio production and hope to hire me in his production. Life is strange.

When I share to my business mentor on my first day to do part-time admin job, she corrects my mistake of my employer’s name. I feel so embarrassed of my own mistake. I thank the Lord for the good environment and to realize my high productivity level. In fact, I should concentrate to produce own animation. I am thinking of renting a desk with JW due to my financial constrain and can put my stuff there. I feel at ease to do the will to my parents yesterday. I wonder. I still hope in the Lord.

I feel bad to tell my mum to stop spoiling my son when I am trying to instruct my son. I hope the Lord can speak to her to respect my authority as the mother of my son. Dad also explain to her that she is spoiling her grandson.