Tick and delete
Two more tasks pop up
Happen again and again
Continuum process of my life
Endless vicious cycle
“Give up” echoes
Am I the problem?
Why is my productivity level low?
Inspiration On: Tuesday, 19 September 2017
I have reading books about productivity and taking notes. Buy the books and borrow it too. However, I feel so stuck. Instead of of focusing on my creative work, piles of work enters. It is regarding to the job I need to focus and other people’s help. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Simply being aware
To be more
Inspiration On: Monday, 31 July 2017
Edited On: Saturday, 12 August 2017
Living according to parents’ expectations can be good or bad. Some parents desire their will upon their child to stay at home. However, not every child can stand at home. Undermining the child’s authority brings disaster upon the child’s child mindset towards the mother. Being stuck in between is an excruciating pain. I agree some values but not all. Because some parents want to choose career for their children. I can’t accept such notions. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
During my attendance to night art classes, I get to befriend two classmates. I share to them my experiences in life. The need to be a chameleon in social situations. Suddenly, today’s High functioning autism why many women are undiagnosed article triggers such memories. I’m surprised the reason I use “chameleon” as a metaphor. Because I have been trying to fit in but to no avail.
A cell leader mentioned the meaning of mess is taking drugs, involved in gang fight and other social issues.
Thus I want to clarify that my mess means literally mess.
One of my room table is messy
Organise things until I can’t find own thing
Things are confusing especially in social situations. The article Why Do Girls Show Signs of Autism Later Than Boys? helps to have a better self-understanding. The reason the characteristics and diagnosis show up later age in girls.
Is it due to women are created differently than men? Based on my interactions with other women, a strong women still wish to be protected by their husbands. Confessions of my personal experiences are 😳
- In the poetry social group, I begin to pick up poetry.
- A classmate whom I like enjoys coding, I learn to pick up the skills.
- Getting married due to pressure from my parents.
- Care the weak for my Lord Jesus becomes my motivating factor.
- Learn art better from teachers and friends.
- Sensing certain feelings after interacting with certain people. (I happen to meet a longtime friend. Suddenly, after confiding she angrily purging out foul words. After we part our ways to home, foul words talking in my head. So I quickly reject it in the name of Jesus. Listen to worship songs help me.)
- Worshipping God through their acts of kindness attract me to the persons. 😳
Upon knowing my weaknesses, I choose to be careful in whom I spend my time. Because I don’t want to lose myself. I want the Holy Spirit to be with me.
Throw me into the pit
Where I can create my pie
Give me the pit of well
How to produce the pie of focus
Pit is where I put in time to focus
Pie is where I put in effort without distraction
Pit of well is a space without distraction
Pie is the final result of many efforts
Enter into the focused pit of well
Work towards the pie of focus
Check the pit before jumping into the well
Prevent unnecessary pie from being produced
Prevent mind block
Reduce the stress level
Environment and Space to pour Time and thought
Enthusiastic Energy of Efforts
Inspiration On: Wednesday, 3 May 2017
“Put in time and effort” are the words I need to take action on. However, there is a sudden inspiration to find its acronym. Thus PIT and PIE birth out. I liken PIT into a well and space. Because I realise that I need the space and environment to focus on the work I need to do. Environment plays a huge role on my focus. Thus I put many efforts at home, the potential and abilities that God blesses me can’t flourish. PIE I’d liken to a pie where many ingredients are mixed together to produce a pie. Thus playing the different alphabets from PIT and PIE can be a tremendous and interesting result. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
At the crossroad of choices
Surrounded by mountains of career paths
Weighing the beginning and destination
Time to make decisions
Make frantic effort to adjust time
Energy tank signaling rapid depletion
Realizing distraction through humans
Asking the Lord for help through human guidance and discipline
Seeking His intervention
Inspiration On: Friday, 28 April 2017
The piles of work I have been doing seems daunting. Countless attempt to stand up. Loneliness sets in. I have been pouring out to God for someone whom I can discuss with. The budget I come out with is over-budget. I feel so powerless. Doing work slow me down. I feel so thankful to God to do part-time work as a teacher. The Lord knows that I am learning to manage myself and have issue to manage the students. He knows my fear of being bullied. Today I ask my lead instructor how to sound firm. He feels that I should know when I sound firm. Oh, I feel so speechless. I can feel that my energy depletes rapidly. Is it due to me learning to manage 40 students in an hour? Wish you all have good days and thank you.