Brother in law | Yoshiko

Shocking news
Disheartening news
Discouragement sets in
My heart sinks
Sinks down to
The bottom of dark hole.

Tears well up in my eyes
Attempt to hold it
Prevent to show it
Painful feelings erupt
Unknown its origin
As if knowing
My mum’s feelings
When she lost
My eldest
In a car accident.

Repeatedly
Continuously
Painful feelings erupt.
Hide
Hide myself
Hiding myself in a toilet’s cubicle
As my tears roll down
Roll down continuously
Pray to control
Such painful emotions.
Huge waves of emotions
Splash against the rock
Struck against the rock
The rock of my heart.

Inspiration On: Sunday, 31 March 2013 from 3:02am to 12:40pm

Before my husband took an aeroplane yesterday, he called me up around 3pm. When I heard that his elder brother passed away, my heart sank down. My friends and I had been praying for his healing when I heard he was hospitalized due to breathing difficulty. The news disheartened me.

Refer: Buried Longing

Puff! Puff!
Smoke puffs out of a dinosaur toy.
Oh, it will need water
Or else
It will be on fire.

Run
RUN
RUN to bathroom.
WATER.
Water, water.
Bucket under the tap water
Open the tap water
Then closes it.

Run
RUN
RUN to smoky dinosaur toy.
Pour
POUR
POUR the pail of water onto
The smoky dinosaur toy.
SPLASH!

It will be well now.
Place it onto the floor.
Press its button.
OH! It doesn’t operate anymore.
It doesn’t operate anymore.
It doesn’t operate . . .
It doesn’t . . .
It . . .
. . .

Inspiration On: Sunday, 27 January 2013 at 6:17pm
Inspiration Ends On: Monday, 28 January 2013 at 3:23pm

My mother in law shared about my husband’s eldest brother when he was young. The above poetry is an inspiration from the actions his eldest brother did to his own toy. In addition, I put myself in his point of view in order to understand him as a toddler. Most of the time, different toddlers are unique and distinct. And most are being misunderstood by the adults and label them who are the naughtiest. Now, my brother in law is an electrician and he can repair any household things.