Prevention is better than cure

Prevention is better than cure
Mostly quoted idiom
Very few people mean it
Most people quote it so well
The fact is few people really care

Once the weaker ones
Speak out
Highlight
Seeking help

The stronger ones
Put it down
Push it aside
Overlook it

Refuse to stretch out
Their hearts, feet and hands
Forget the idiom
Prevention is better than cure

As the weaker ones
Welling tears dry up
Tired of speaking
Hitting the head against the wall

Until a truly caring person
Willingly stretch out help to the weak
Who attempt to stand up again
The weak faces all disadvantages

Needing the Saviour’s intervention
Who gives many opportunities
Through the people who truly reach out
To the weak to stand up


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 23 August 2016

Lately, I am pissed off with someone who quotes, “prevention is better than cure”. However, when someone is slightly sick, he/she is being chided for making noise. Therefore, I feel the person who speaks it out is contradicting. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Kids Work Backward

Truth hurts
Continue to learn to give thanks
Deep within
Awake to awful reality
About myself

“Kids work backward”
That echoes repetitively deep inside
Is it a blessing or curse?
Hurting my self-confidence and self-esteem
Needing the Lord to intervene


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 1 June 2016

I thank the Lord and thankful for the following.

The courage to share to the animation teacher that I feel stuck to consider the focal point and draw according to it. In fact, I feel that I can draw better and clearer without focal point. He explains directly that a child learns through backward. It is important to have art background. I can only thank him. In the bus home, his words always speak in my mind. Lord, do I tire myself easily? So far, it has taken me so far. I pray for internship. In Jesus’ name I pray. I thank You for the unexpected answered prayer for scholarship. I need the right environment, Lord. Let the fish jumps into the new blue ocean. I don’t want to lose the natural abilities You have blessed me with.

The courage to ask my CG’s email addresses to email my current job’s letter of employment. Because I can’t stand the confusion anymore. Suddenly, J asks why need their email address. PL explains yesterday we talk about it. Why Lord? Only PL fully understands.

Realisation of my brain switching around. Mum sees that my eyes looks just cried. She is concerned and wants me to share. I choose to keep quiet. Inside I feel so awful and going to see the real me. A child? Awhile comes the memory of something funny so I laugh in front of mum. Having left and right brain working together is a nightmare.

Scripture “Luke 6:46 Why do you call Me ‘Lord, Lord’, and do not do what I say? 1 Sam 15:22 what is more pleasing to the Lord: your burnt offerings and sacrifices, or your obedience to His voice? Listen! Obedience is better than sacrifice, and submission is better than offering the fat of rams.” from a sister in Christ then she sums it into a point to “Who is in charge of your life? If God is your co-pilot, switch seats.”

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Harsh

Too harsh cuts
Harsh transitions in shots
Simplify the line
Describe my current life situations
Harsh times!
My facial expression looks calm
Thus cause current animation teacher
Assumes and misunderstands me

Harsh seasons
Demands and leads me
Produce harsh storyboard transitions
Even leads to harsh artworks
In different mediums
Seeking outlet to
Pour out


Inspiration On: Friday, 20 May 2016

During the night animation class, the teacher explains that my storyboard transition is too harsh. Once he draws out, I begin to understand the meaning of his words. This shows that studying in a class can only help me to a certain degree. In fact, one to one has a better effect. The teacher keeps on emphasizing that some ugly drawing tells a better story. I realise he has certain biases. There are beautiful drawings tell beautiful stories. He hasn’t seen all my story. When I assess my current situation, it is a harsh time for me. No wonder my story panels show harsh transitions. Upon listening to his explanation, I begin to take note of the focal point. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Emerging and Development

Unreadable
Unpredictable
Full of “why” questions
Questioning own motives

Aligning myself according to
The Word of God
Questioning own abilities

Learning to identify
Natural abilities and learned skills
That emerge and develop through time

How do people around me view my strengths?
What do they see in me?
Do they see Jesus’ strength in my weaknesses?


Inspiration On: Friday, 20 May 2016

The two days leadership workshop enable me to learn about myself and how my Lord Jesus works through me despite my weaknesses. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Unawareness into Trouble

A friendly Long haired lady
We are paired into a team group
Team B
For the company team building event
Having fun together
Treat everyone a drink according to own taste
Share her goal in finance industry
Now she is able to reach
An extremely capable lady in counting

Confess everything to close friend
She laughingly respond
Not to get her into trouble
That lady’s photo is inside the website
Yet I don’t know
Inside I feel awful
Intending to get another job
Preparing to open my mouth and ask for jobs
Ready to jump onto another job


Inspiration On: Friday, 20 May 2016

A colleague LK suddenly asks for my resume. That alarms me! Because I decide to leave the company. “I don’t want you to suddenly leave the company,” is his response. Inside I feel so condemned. Because in the company I feel that I am living in the prison. Everyday customers complain. However, I thank God for the calmness to reply to my colleague that I need to print it at home.

The company’s team building time. I feel happy for my friend receives an envelope. The two speakers passes the envelope to our supervisor. He passes it to me to give it to my friend. We are separated into four teams. I am assigned to team B. A friendly long haired lady is my team leader. LK is one of my team mates. I enjoy the play time together – draw from given words together and guessing words.

The 15 minutes break. So the friendly long haired lady with oval shaped face suggests to have a drink. I wish to quickly go up into the room. However, I feel restrained to comply to her welcoming gesture. She lets me choose on the drink I want. No tea at the menu! I see cans of A&W root beer inside a chilled glass drawer. So I speak out to have A&W root beer. I draw out $2 note from my purse. Reluctantly part with it due to attending company’s event. Unexpectedly, she treats every team member and me. We find a table and have conversation with two of my team mates. She asks where both of them work. They work at big companies. I feel so small. Last is my turn. I share about my freelance experiences in IT and arts. So I sum it into ARTIST. Since I don’t have accounting background, I contribute by coding to automate the same letter. As we walk towards the lift, she says there is no black and white way. I respond there is black and white. Earning income through work is right. Stealing and robbing is wrong way to earn money. That’s what I mean. The lift elevates us into fifth floor. So we enter into possibility room. Another game begins. I am so happy to see my friend. A folded blue green craft paper is given to me. Every team members are given the opportunity to represent their own team to push the folded paper onto the table. It is to hit other folded papers away. Every team has different colours. It is my turn. The lady explains to me that the game concept is like billiard. I need to hit other folded paper. Excitedly I use my left hand to push it. It zooms out of the table. “Out of bound!” Oh no! Suicidal folded paper. So embarrassing.

The last game is to arrange numbers and multipliers sign to produce largest result. I observe the lady is good in her arrangement. Division signs are applied to middle values. Minus signs are applied to smallest value. Multiply signs are applied to large numbers. Thus 389 is the final result. It’s food time. That 389 ends us in second prize. The lady goes in front to pass winning prize. Such a strange lady. It is our team’s turn to receive an envelope of winning prize. LK passes it to me. I open it. It is a capital mall vouchers. He let me decide on what to do with the voucher. My idea is to distribute it evenly. So that we can buy what we want. However, LK emphasizes to use it to eat good food together. Fed up! Calmly I ask everyone’s name and write it onto the envelope. He assigns me to be the organiser. He suggests Swensen. The lady comes smiling. She agrees to LK’s suggestion to eat together. She walks towards the front again. I ask him her name repeatedly. He keeps on repeating, “Alice in wonderland.” In the end, he says her full name. She returns to our seat row. I ask her whether I can bring my friend. Sure is her answer. Next I enquires her availability. Her response is call her secretary about her schedule. Then she returns to the front. Strange lady. At my left, LK explains she is CFO. Wan Xun also confirms it. Hmm . . .

My friend encourages me to take the left over. She knows I love beef satay so she reserves the last three sticks for me. Plus reserve the paper box dish that I like. Since my son loves fish ball, she pours all of it into the paper box. That’s more than enough. Everything has ended. However, LK adds more food box, satay chilli and many other until he inserts ice lemon tea pack drink. I have enough. Grateful for her to speak on my behalf. Then she walks with me and carry the plastic bag for me to the bus stop to find bus. On the way, I share to her about all the things I speak to the lady. She replies not to get her into trouble. I don’t know what is happening. She replies that our supervisor and every managers answer to her. “Don’t you understand her position from the way she talks?” That question baffles me. I answer based from my feelings, “she sounds friendly.” “Don’t you check the company’s website? In the website, her photo is introduced as the company’s website,” she probes. I answer as it is, “I check the website only on the job I am supposed to do.” Do I frustrate her? Oh no! Maybe I should quickly grab a job and submit resignation letter. Or else, I’ll get CMF into trouble. Then I board bus 65 and reach the animation school.

The peace at animation class enable me to do my homework reaching more than 30 panels. My teacher wants to see my homework but I’m not ready. I feel so much in tune with my imagination and draw it out. It feels so exhilarating and satisfied.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Use Left or Right Hand?

Most sketchings gives soft sense
Producing different feelings
Current animation teacher can tell my
Frustration
Tired
Confusion
Loving the picture

Comparing first and second day of
Gestural figure drawings
First day of gestural sketchings
Better than the second day
Best results are the sketches with left hand
Teacher doesn’t know my problems
Using both left and right hands

Experiment drawing with my left hand
Results are faster and give stronger feeling
Than sketchings with my right hand
Warming up sketchings with left hand
Switch back to right hand
Boost the strength of my gestural drawings
A new discovery of myself and at a loss

Using left hand
Or
Using right hand
Or
Use both hands
This really slows me down
Need the Lord to discover His creation


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 18 May 2016

The animation teacher emphasises my first gesture drawing is much better than the second day. That reminds me of my left hand. As I draw with my left hand drawings, all show more energy compared to my right hand. When I return to my right hand, my right hand drawings have more energy. What happen to my body system? A new discovery about myself. How can I be ambidextrous? Impossible. This really slows me down.

At home, my younger brother gives a news to me that my husband teaches our son in his studies. It is a big surprise to me. Then he reveals dad and mum go to my son’s school so the principal gives my husband a call.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Concurrent Events

Cell leader’s mother in law
Had a fall
Being hospitalised
Visit and pray for her as a cell

Own mother has gum swell
Feverish symptoms
Excuse myself to return home
Seeking prayer request via chat group

In the end
Neglecting own homework
Due tomorrow
Seeking my Lord’s help

Sensing exhaustion in own body
Needing the Lord’s strength
More than anyone
Due to weak physical body


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 17 May 2016

Suddenly, my cell leader’s Mother in law had a fall and hospitalised. Then today my mum’s gum swell. She feels she going to have fever. If I can split myself then I will not be in a rush. Wish you all have good days and thank you.