Make Up Foundation Looks Confusion

Address my business mentor
As beauty consultant
To ask about
Make up foundation questions
With natural ingredients
Without harmful ingredients

My purpose is to
Cover up any bruises
Any minor wounds

The beauty consultant gives the
Keywords to google
Concluding my unnatural look

Inside is full of confusions
Praising my wedding photo
Now feedback unnatural look

Inspiration On: Thursday, 12 November 2015 at 11:20pm

When I observe my friend’s dry hands (whom I admire her courage) and the need to cover my bruise, make-up foundation comes into my mind. Then birth out the poetry for my encounter with my business mentor. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Left Out

In a state of chaos
In a state of confusion
In a state of pain
In the family
I am left out of the family
Lacking financial resources
Weak in social and communication skills

Outside events baffle me
A lady becomes my business partner
Another lady shows her bank account about investment

The business partner
Seems fierce yet compassionate
Teaches me
Communication skills
Social skills
Guides me in diets
Brings out and shares her food

The other lady
Speaks well of others
Cares about my retirement funds
Inviting me to learn investment
Expecting zero knowledge from me
She baffles me to
Show her bank account

Life is so strange
What is God doing in my life?
In a state of shock
I am speechless
Should I trust the investment lady?

O Lord
Please tell me
Please guide me
Lead me
You are the One I trust

Inspiration On: Thursday, 17 September 2015 at 10:35am

I let my mother in law to influence my husband. Most of the tasks are thrown onto me. When I handle it correctly, there is no appreciation. When I was too overwhelmed with too many tasks and make mistakes, he finds faults with me and criticizes a lot. Later on, he cuts my supplementary credit card and takes over the groceries purchases. Therefore, I feel that I am running around working on the business idea with lady. I wish you all have good days and thank you.

Why? Why?

Why do you have to come to give me hug?
When I was going to close up
Why do you speak so gently to comfort my aching heart?

Now, I am stuttering
Yes, I stumble with my words
Learning to communicate clearly

Why are you so hard on me?
When I want to say I need help
I stumble with my words
Your presumptions and misunderstandings
Of me and challenge the Lord
Hurts me so much

Do you speak on His behalf?
Do you speak on your own perceptions?

Inspiration On: Thursday, 30 July 2015 at 3pm
Inspiration Ends On: Thursday, 13 August 2015 at 10am

During my interactions with a sister in Christ, she seemed pissed off with my delay response and my stuttering. The business idea to give job opportunities to single mothers May this poetry comforts those who are caught in between. May you know that you are not alone. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Why Do You?

Why do you come into my life?
Why do you come to mess my life?

Why are you jealous of me?
Your grades are better then mine.
You have smarter brain than I am.

Why are you so suspicious of me?
Where do I give you misunderstanding?
I just want to bless you surprisingly.

Why do you use my weakness to put me down?
I thought you are my confidant.
There is so much thing I want to share with you.

My lips are tight
I can not trust you

Why I can not trust you?
Because you lie to me!
Because you add wounds to my salt!
Make my life like a hell!

Why do you believe the devil’s lies?
Do you love to misjudge others?
Do you still live in your mother’s cloud of influence and decision?

Why do you take advantage of my naiveness?
Why do you take advantage of my confusion?
Why do you love to put your words into others’ mouth?
I can not believe your words anymore.

Inspiration On: Thursday, 21 May 2015 at 12pm

A lot of strange events occur in my life. When I mean well, my mother in law and husband misunderstood me. When I begin to trust him again and confide in him, he betray my trust. Maybe I look highly of him. Every year, my mother in law gave warnings of divorce threats to me. Then my husband always let me to make the decisions. When the result of my decision turns out well, no appreciation. Yet when the result of my decision is wrong, he always pick on me and put me down. I have felt worse. Yet he makes me feel much worse. Despite my parents warning, I feel foolish to pity my mother in law. But she falsely accused my mother and I out of her jealousy. Recently, my husband loves to start to the quarrel and blame me. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Lonely Life

Loneliness residing inside
Despair in life
Living in this lonely world
Though I seek to understand others

Full of ravaging wolves
Preying on my caring hearts
Wounding it to the core

Lacking understanding hearts
Produce deflectors

One feet forward yet half feet backward
Towards my destination
Confusions are battling within

Wishing to be invisible
Resting from many labours

Inspiration On: Tuesday, 17 March 2015 at 4:45pm

My many mistakes hurt my heart. It is the mistake to care others yet others do not seek to understand me. Though some nice people encourage me to move forward, some even deters me from moving forward. Wish you all have good days and thank you.