Do I or Do I Not?

Do I matter?
Or do I not matter?

Only to be a door mat
Or to be a floor mat

Is my dream unacceptable?
Only to be overwritten
Opinions are given to me to be listened

Is my voice unheard?
Due to my softness

My mind wanders
Aimlessly in the clouds

My legs wanders
Aimlessly between house and outside

Do I matter?
Or do I not matter?

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Inspiration On: Sunday, 1 March 2015 at 4:20am to 4:34am

Driven by the strong feelings of depression, I begin to question my existence. Questioning the reason of me being alive instead of my eldest sister who is more intelligent then I do. Her intelligence and strong absorption in learning are praised by my parents. And I know I am slow. Hence, I do my best in my studies. Escaping deaths thrice plus twice. I feel so tired of living and being taken advantage. Do I able to succeed to contribute to my family financially? Thank you for your time to read this poetry. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Bark to Silence

Woof! Woof!
Woof! Woof!
Turning head
Eyes scan through
Woof! Woof!
Woof! Woof!
Ears detect barking dog
In a unit amongst the block
Woof! Woof!
Woof! Woof!
Silence

Where? Where?
Where is the dog?
It barks
Do not disturb
My sleep

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Inspiration On: Tuesday, 6 August 2013 at 10:36pm
Inspiration On: Wednesday, 7 August 2013 at 10am

While my son, husband, and I walked home, we passed by a block. Suddenly, a mini dog’s bark was heard nearby. My son was searching the dog, but it stopped barking. As if the dog fell asleep so I explained to him that probably the dog informed not to disturb its sleep.

I Don’t Understand

I don’t understand
I don’t understand
Why people laugh at my actions?
I don’t understand
Why people laugh at my words?
I don’t understand
Myself
I really don’t understand
Myself

Do you understand me?
My readers, do you understand me?
Does my style of writing makes you laugh?

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Inspiration On: Monday, 24 June 2013 at 7:28pm
Inspiration Ends On: Tuesday, 25 June 2013 at 12:21am

Constant Nagging

A constant nagging
Deep inside
To finish a task

A constant nagging
Deep inside
Convicting own sin

A constant nagging
Deep inside
To avoid sin again

A constant nagging
Deep inside
To stay away from certain places.

A constant nagging
Deep inside
To do what is right.

A constant nagging
Deep inside
To stop living in the past

A constant nagging
Deep inside
To move forward with courage.

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Inspiration On: Wednesday, 15 May 2013 at 8:21pm
Inspiration Ends On: Saturday, 18 May 2013 at 1:35am

I wonder with the sudden words speaking to my mind, “A constant nagging”. Finally, the words flowed out.

To or Not To

To do or not to do
To buy or don’t buy
To queue or not to queue
To work or not to work
To get bored or don’t get bored
To get busy or don’t get busy
To decide or not
Stress or not stressed
That is the question
That is the dilemma
That is the contradiction
Which one is better?
Which one will we choose?

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Inspiration On: Thursday, 20 December 2012 at 11am
Inspiration Ends On: Friday, 21 December 2013 at 12:52pm

Living in an Internet era, I am considering whether to get a tablet and have 24 hours Internet connection. But I am worried that it will disrupt my family time. Then the above inspiration came drawn from Shakespeare’s Hamlet script that I had read before.