Extreme Opposing Patterns

Judge others harshly
Lack of understanding
Overlook own mistakes
Extremely self-forgiving
Finding fault on others
Searching for scapegoats
Seeking control on others’ lives
Protecting own interest

Extremely forgiving others’ mistakes easily
Full of empathy and understanding
No excuse with own mistakes
Admit own faults
Beware of being the scapegoat
Be sensitive to manipulative spirits
Protect others’ interest
Seek the Lord’s intervention to stop being controlled

Circumstances and situations
May cause
Both extremes switch places
Thus the cycle continues

Maintain self-care purpose
In order to
Care others require
Recognise the higher power
Omnipotent God sees
Seeking my Lord and Saviour
To be the person whom the Lord wants

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Inspiration On: Tuesday, 14 September 2016

It has been months I have been feeling miserable. My cell leader has been highlighting to me repetitively to learn to self care so that I can care others. I begin realise that it is my mistakes to let others enter into my boundaries. I refuse to let my patterns to continue and ask God for wisdom. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

People with Autism Can Read Emotions, Feel Empathy

Finally, the People with Autism Can Read Emotions, Feel Empathy news 😂 brightens my day. Because I feel a lot. Last night is the last day of the animation class. The teacher confirms my potential in character design. Through my arts, he can feel that I feel a lot towards my characters. Throughout the class, he noticed that I take more time on the characters’ emotions. I feel so enlivened. Why does he relive my hope to be part of cartoon industry? Inside my heart, I feel pushed further despite my worsened migraine. I begin to understand myself better because I tend to put myself on others’ shoes. Glad to find something I can focus on.

Delayed ADHD, autism diagnoses can hurt girls

Delayed ADHD, autism diagnoses can hurt girls article reminds me of happened and current situation. My mother and even friends give me honest feedback. I tend to jump from one topic to another topic. As stated in the article, Halvorson mentioned “It takes all of my energy to focus, and I find myself flying around from one thing to another”. I do so due to feel that the topic is related to the topic from past experiences. However, I have problems in creating the connection. Currently, I do get distracted a lot especially in my marriage life.

I agree with Halvorson that my experiences give me more empathy. I’m surprised from the C-Vat test that my empathy level is too high – 9 out of 10. It helps me in terms of relating to others.

I am interested to interact socially and receive the compliment of being a good listener. Because I tend to listen and very quiet. Though I try to communicate, I communicate more through actions and words. Liebe highlighted that girls with autism tend to have better underlying communication skills. They’re able to show empathy and social interest, which deflects easy diagnosis.

I have been attempting to fit in but having difficulty to do so. I embarassly admit that I don’t care about fashion. I love to feel comfortable with the way I wear. My business mentor cum business partner highlight that I don’t care how I look like. I am literal in the way I speak. But I don’t know whether I am blunt in the way I express. I have trouble in being assertive so I unknowingly let others cross into my boundary. Now, I thank the Lord to be more assertive.