Marvellous Time

Amazed of my Lord’s blessings and timing
A marvellous God
Upon my family and situation
My heart is full of gratitude

Few days ago
Own Mother seeks my permission to bring my son
To attend my nephew’s newborn baby shower
Agree to let her bring and let him enjoy with other children

Today is the day to rush the writing for
Green initiative of the executed coding ideas
Boiling and arising in my heart and mind
To be a blessing to the current company

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Inspiration On: Saturday, 9 April 2016

The Lord works marvellously beforehand. He goes before me. My mum brings my son and he wants to follow her for my nephew’s newborn baby shower. Today is the day I need to write about green initiative for my executed automation coding idea. Though I have read others’ writing on their ideas, none are applicable to me. Therefore, I write about my own executed excel VBA codes. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Better Self-Understanding

Hard to see own strengths
Others see and point my strengths
Though I confess my own weaknesses

Feelings of unworthiness
Cloud my conscience
Magnified before my eyes

No deterrence to such feelings
Still willing to stand up and do my best
Obediently listen to the call of my life

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Inspiration On: Thursday, 7 April 2016

A lot of reflections are going through in my heart and mind. Seeking to understand myself better and how my Lord Jesus strengthens me. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Many Perspectives In An Issue

Two company customers
SCOLD
Without me knowing head and tail of the issue

Choose to keep silent and apologise
Strength through the Holy Spirit
See the situation through many different perspectives

Endless cycle of perspectives from
Different lenses with
Diverse feelings and mindsets

Broken communications amongst different departments
Hurting employee’s feelings and self-esteem
Customers’ needs are not met

A customer harshly scold foul languages
Only to realize he chose to engage the company’s service
Blames the company instead of his own choice

Another customer scolds due to nobody returns her call
Close friend and I react thus she guides me to check the matter and write email
A colleague proves a point for a customer to scold empty words

Second investigation causes my friend and I
Stick to our supervisor’s email
Apologise to the lady of the correct amount to pay

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Inspiration On: Friday, 8 April 2016

I am working in a company. I am scolded by two customers. The Holy Spirit enables me to calm down and to see from many different perspectives. Yesterday is a man who scold with foul languages and even calling the company blood suckers. When I analyze his thoughts, he is the one who chooses to sign up for the company’s service. Since he wants to use the company’s device and service, he needs to pay them. A lady speaks angrily that she is going to return payment terminal and prepare the cheque payment tomorrow. A colleague has a point too. Some customers say they will return the machine. However, they don’t return it. It is better for her to return by tomorrow in order to prevent this month’s charges. She says she doesn’t use the machine. Should I believe her, Lord? Other customers are very understanding. He and she explains gently that their company wants to terminate our company’s payment service and even care whether they owe the company money on the made transaction. Other customers pay punctually and continually uses the service.

Current company come out with a lot of time, money and resources to build the device and pay their employees. The small businesses just need to pay $30 to $40 per month or even a few hundred dollars of annual fee to use the machines and services. It is likened to buy movie tickets to watch movies and/or animation. Nowadays, the people’s mindsets tend towards free instead of considering many people’s sacrifices on their time, money and mental energy being spent to produce the best product. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Blessing in Willingness to Help

Willingly
Prayerfully
Lend my help
Dare not promise
High hopes of recovery
“I do my best”
Seeking God’s help

She initiates prayer for God’s intervention
Miracle of healing her only laptop
Amen to her prayers
Seeking the Lord’s hands upon it
Advise her laptop to the nearby service center
Her iPad slows down
His wisdom guides and leads me to speed it up

Her relieved look produces
Satisfaction
Joy
Into
My heart
Unexpectedly it solves my iPhone issues
God amazes me

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Inspiration On: Friday, 18 March 2016

Today is such an amazing day. I feel so thankful to God and for today.

The discernment upon looking at Misa’s Sony Vaio laptop. Therefore I advise her to bring it to Sony service centre located at nearby mall. She initiates to pray for God to heal her laptop. So we pray together. Lord, please answer her prayer. In Yeshua’s name. Amen. Then she takes out her iPad Air 2. It slows down. Few apps only. So I advise her whether she is prepared for it to return to its original factory settings. She has no choice to do so. As I Google search it, I come across to restore to factory settings with MacBook. Amazingly, the Holy Spirit leads me to the part without computer. I go into the iPad Air 2 settings. Instead of resetting the content data and settings, I reset the settings. Out of sudden, her iPad Air 2 speeds up. Praise God! In the end, I feel compelled to apply it to my iPhone 5S. Upon resetting its settings, it stops prompting me that it runs out of space. God is amazing!

The animation school administrator sends me invoices and receipts. The school pays the remaining 10% of my school fees.

Overall, I feel so delighted to be of help to Misa. Through helping her, I get to know her better. Unexpectedly, my iPhone problem is also solved.

In the storyboard class, the teacher explains about children does their art through backward thinking. Somehow, it is lost upon reaching adulthood. I am surprised that I’m a “big kiddie” due to my backward thinking to solve problems. IC gives me such nickname. Again, he emphasises that he likes my drawing style. DB, my ex-client likes my style too. No wonder I feel so stifled at home. I feel being put down. No wonder my son also doesn’t like it. When he watches the television, my dad switches on the driller. Therefore, he complains that he can’t hear the television sound.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Restart and Re-learn

Restart and Re-Learn
Restarting new life
Re-learning everything in life
Asking directions
Outside home

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Inspiration On: Friday, 6 November 2015 at 9:50pm

The bruise under my right eye lessen though laugh cause pain and my forehead points are in pain.

Today is my pay day so I go to the office to collect my cheque. My supervisor understands I want to cash out the cheque so she does not cross out the cheque. She kindly explains to me that cheque shouldn’t be crossed if need to cash it out. However, she warns me that if I drop it, anybody can cash it out.

I ask my business mentor about the pandora voucher. She explains it is jewelry shop. After I collect the $20 pandora voucher at funan, I inform my business mentor because I don’t know what to do with it. I don’t wear jewelry. She also does not fancy jewelry. So I ask the redemption shop on pandora outlet. She explains that I can call the mobile provider to ask for another useful voucher even though I win it. So I walk to the nearest pandora outlet. Everything is so expensive especially the gold. I can only afford the sterling silver. So I use the $20 voucher to offset the earring price and treat it as a gift to mum.

Oh no! Why am I re-learning everything? Why do my life seems to restart? This is saddening. I still want to move on.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Conversation Behind Screen

Physical bruises and injuries conversations
Reveals divine protection upon me
Testifying God’s hand in my life
Showing He is omnipotent

Whining in pain
Only to be told
Being a softie
I’m human depending in Jesus

Recognize own weaknesses
Don’t deter me
To continue my journey to move forward
In my recuperation phase

Some misunderstandings begin to
Clear
Understanding each other better

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Inspiration On: Thursday, 5 November 2015

Though my business mentor and mum feel I don’t need to go for x-ray scanning, I have a bad feeling. My migraine worsens. My front forehead is in pain. At times, my left jaw is in pain.

They are shocked to hear that the 16 November part-time job gives me a space to work due to tight budget. Through WhatsApp, my business mentor “What?” sends a shock signal. True that she is shocked. I am surprised of her asking me, “Is this your first physical injury?” So I answer, “This is my first physical face injury.”

She clarifies, “Not just face. You mean you had body injury before?”

“Yes. Fingers, Ankles, and legs. Knees too. When I learn ice skating and riding bicycle. And also motorbike accident.”

More question, “Normal injury like cuts and bruises from fall?”

“Normal injury like cuts and bruises from fall?”

Of course, I am stating the fact, “Motorbike accident? Nothing serious but just a fall from it?”

I answer, “Yes. Hit by motorbike during my primary 4 days. Around a few meters. Almost fell into the drain. Thank God I didn’t fell into the dirty drain. My knees suffer injuries and bruises. And I sprained my knees.”

She interprets, “God shielded you from serious injuries. These are minor pains.”

I agree, “Yes. God shielded me.”

“Then no need be a softie…..”

“What do you mean by softie? In what way do I look like a softie?” I wonder.

“Talking about your swell and pain frequently. Not look. You are a softie.” She explains.

I question, “Do I look like one? I don’t feel so.”

She interrogates, “Why is it you don’t feel so? Well…. You think you are tough?”

“Nope.” I answer.

“And?”

I explain further, “I’m learning to be strong.”

“Experiential learning and challenges of life…”

That’s the conversation with my business mentor through WhatsApp who sees God in an autistic life.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Caught with Swelling Eye

Performing my duties at work
Sunglass impair my vision
Take it off

Supervisor suddenly enters
Showing concern
Shock with my eyes

I had a fall in the bathroom
Hoping to dispel misunderstanding
Surprised with her kind concern
Have you seen the doctor?
I have seen the doctor

Sudden news today is the last day
Relieved to hear due to I want to
Fulfill my vow before the Lord

We go through my total hours
I point my mistake to reduce half hour
Due to my mistake for being late a few minutes
Putting myself in the employers’ shoes
God is fair so I need to be fair
She excuses me due to my
Work productivity?

I feel unworthy yet
God is gracious
To receive pay more than allowance from husband
He provides this month
When my husband purposely
Choose not to give
Allowance

We knock off
Surprised of my supervisor
Keep in touch
Comforting to hear that
I like her compassionate personality

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Inspiration On: Wednesday, 4 November 2015 at 11pm

My business mentor cares about my focus by sending slides on focus. I honestly tell her my resolution that I want to concentrate in the concept and character designs. She asks me how to find the volunteers. I am thinking also. Then I muster my courage to tell her I need volunteers to cover my ministry work. I share some part of my tasks. She gets a shock. So that I can concentrate on the business side. I need the one who does the graphic design. She questions me the reason I didn’t say it earlier. I can only answer that I don’t know how to say it. After I read the Meridian Herbal Oil, I share about my interaction with the 50 years old uncle. We speaks through WhatsApp.

I begin, “I’ve read the vital meridian essence ingredients, directions and functions. The word ‘qi’ reminds me of my days at the Comic Association. The 50 years old uncle who talks to me mentioned three things that I’m lack of and scared him.

Can’t sense my qi

Can’t hear my breath

Can’t hear my footsteps

Those traits he often highlighted to me. I just don’t understand him.”

She sounds shocked, “what?”

“Are you shocked to hear this? I was and am speechless.”

“You have a health problem. Avoid drug medication at all cost.”

“Oh no”

“Ensure you use 20 drops of VM and 10 drops of Angelica Ardent on your womb and your kidney areas nightly. Good to strengthen your qi and blood circulation. You need to strengthen your lung and large intestine meridians. But the Magnolia oil is not cheap.”

“Well, how much was your medical bill yesterday?”

“Around $53 plus. My son encouraged me to go and bring his dad along. He only responded if I want to go. So he paid for it without looking at me.”

“Let him be. Fix your eyes on Jesus alone.”

“Thanks.”

When I was working alone in the conference room, I took off my sunglasses. Suddenly, my supervisor enters and is shocked at the swell. She is concerned on my well being. I said that I had a fall in the bathroom. She asks whether I have visited the doctor. Gratefully, I reply that I had visited the doctor yesterday.

I share this to my business mentor of being caught by her friend (my supervisor) on my eye swell. I feel so embarrassed. Her reply astonish me, “Nothing embarrassing. More about empathy. Any one could have met with mishap or accident that cause injury. Thank God that nothing serious.” Then I respond, “Yeah. Thank God I didn’t knock onto my head. But today I knocked onto my head when I was working alone.”

Oh! What happen to me? Why does the Lord humbles me? I want to be strong. Though I tend to pity and care others, I don’t like to be pitied. I believe it is important to have a giving spirit.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Sunglass to Cover Bruise

The bruise under my right eye worsens
Top right eye slightly appear bruise
Wear sunglasses to office
Preventing misunderstanding
Surprise everyone in office
Concerned Supervisor
Asks my well-being
I assure her saying
I feel like wearing sunglasses
Another concerned colleague asks
Then I share
I had a fall
She ever had a fall
Still she appears without sunglasses
Not to worry

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Inspiration On: Monday, 3 November 2015 at 11pm

Oh no! The bruise under my right eye worsens. So I wear sunglasses to the office to cover it. Because I don’t want to be looked at due to my bruise.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Trips

Left feet steps into the slippery bathtub
Losing balance
Whole body falls
Right cheekbone knocks hard into the side bathtub
Two hands push my body up
Wallow in pain of the aching cheekbone
Thank God my head is safe

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Inspiration On: Monday, 2 November 2015 at 11pm

I enter my left feet into the bathtub. Distracted with too much thought, I lose my left leg balance. My left feet slips and my right cheekbone bump heavily into the side bathtub. Immediately, I rub it and paralyzed by the great pain for a few minutes. Then I take shower. Thank God for the notion to pour hot water into a bowl with mini towel. Next, I lay the towel onto my aching right cheekbone. My son and helper care about the blue black at my right cheekbone and under my eyes. My husband doesn’t observe. Anyway, I just keep quiet about it. Does he really care about me? November house allowance is not even given. That shows he cares about his own pocket rather than me. I have been considering his feelings and care about God doesn’t like divorce. I am working on my career to earn income to be independent. Yet he cares only his mother’s and own opinions. In fact, I should realize it earlier during dating days on the conversation. When he knew my dad doesn’t fight for family inheritance, he mentioned that he will fight for it. That shows his security is in money.

Strange! Even though my husband has decided to give helper the pay, my helper still cares about me though I don’t earn much. It’s true that the way to care is being caring.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

See My Future In The Mirror

Who do I see?
I see her gentleness
I see her love and care towards
Those who are doing
Labour work

Who do I see?
I see her encouragement
I see her well treatment and motivations towards
Those who are doing
Labour work

Who do I see?
I see a strong leader who work hard
I see a strong leader who cares the safety of
Those who are doing
Labour work

Who do I see?
I see a strong leader who spreads herself thin
I see a strong leader who is physically weak
Thus often fall sick
Need recuperation

A compassionate strong leader
Who needs to care own physical strength
Expression of admiration and gratitude to my Lord and Saviour
Deepen my walk in the Lord

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Inspiration On: Thursday, 29 October 2015 at 10pm

At night, YY (the finance department leader who employs me as a part-time admin) comes into my mind. Her personality attracts me. Her gentleness and caring towards the employee. Her actions speaks a lot about her being a strong Christian though she has a weak body. She has a lot of unseen documents to clear. It’s like seeing myself in the future. So I confide to my business mentor, “YY has a lot of unseen documents to clear. I never expect that. Come to think of it. This helps me reflect on myself. I have been stretching myself too thin.” Her reply is only word, “FOCUS”. My response is, “Oh yes. Focus. No wonder I make a lot of mess with too many commitments and tasks. May we continually pray for each other.” She responds, “Certainly.” No wonder my mental and physical are affected badly due to being overworked and pressed from many sides. Wish you all have good days and thank you.