Fatigue

I rush to SS’s hair salon to meet my business mentor. My business mentor packs food and brings banana for everyone. After I observe her looks, she doesn’t look that fierce. Finally, I have the courage to give her my sketch for her as the token of appreciation. However, I don’t dare to give her the bookmark for her name written in Hebrew. When she goes somewhere, I thank God for the opportunity to slip it into her book. Glad to listen to the post encounter online class. I’m surprised for her to ask me questions on the lesson I learned. It is about three praise and worship style according to God. Hands reaching out to God, kneeling down and prostrating.

She blesses everybody with Christmas presents. She blesses my son and I with Christmas gift – a pencil box and a praying hand 3D puzzle. I give the 3D puzzle for Huey to bring for the Christmas party gift exchange. Joy receives it. I can only treat it as a loss. Unexpectedly, my business mentor gives 3D puzzle Christmas gift to Huey. Before I am leaving, she reminds me to do acupressure onto my neck. She does acupressure until I struggle in much pain. She can sense it is worse. I realize yesterday meeting mentor, a friend to mentor, career coach, and MK causes the fatigue. I remember mum’s words that I shouldn’t tire myself too much.

Disrupt

Miscellaneous tasks
Work, family and work
Seeds of ideas are birthing

Endless piling jobs
Repetitive tasks
Birthing ideas are boiling

Thus
All these
Disrupt creative flow

Thus
Exhaustion 
Overwhelmed

Mental and physical fatigue 
Sip into my inner core
Leech my cheerfulness in life


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 16 September 2014 at 11:50pm
Inspiration Ends On: Wednesday, 17 September 2014 at 12:51am

All the projects I received, I do at home.  Noises at home are endless. Tasks at home are piling. The job from the client often gives tight deadlines – either submit by night or next morning. Recently, I feel burnt out and depressed. Upon reference, I do personality test. ISFJ is the result from answering the questions. All the explanation reflects true of myself. No wonder I flourish with given long timeline but overwhelmed with tight deadline and sudden changes. Glad to vent out my frustrations. Wish you all have good days and thank you for all your time to read my poetry.

Fatigue

Work from home
Care my son
Spend time with husband
Spend time and help parents
Lack of spare time
Fatigue body
Loss of concentration
When will this end?

Wishing to connect with others
Switching on the computer
Fall asleep in front of the computer
Before entering
Wordpress
When will this end?

A daily continuum cycle
When will this cycle breaks?
Blockage at every poetry
Muse is neglected
When will this cycle breaks?


Inspiration On: Thursday, 13 March 2014 at 10pm
Inspiration Ends On: Tuesday, 19 August, 2014 at 1:48pm

During the stated inspirations, everything seems bleak due to late sleeping and unknowingly I am under depression. After I go to the neurology doctor last Friday, I am diagnosed with depression and I reluctantly consume the medication. Though I sleep longer than usual due to the anti-depressant, my concentration level improves. I really thank my parents to care my son whenever I am sleeping. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Drowsy

Heaviness in my head
Tightness and pulling in my head
Body feels fatigue
Shoulders are aching
Drowsiness sets in
Yawning continuously
Concentration is gone
Almost fallen asleep
With my book
SLAPS my face!
SLAPS to wake me up!
To put it back
Then i rest on my bed.


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 12 December 2012 at 12:26am
Revised At: 4:52pm

It began two days ago; I woke up from my sleep feeling fatigue though I had slept for 10 hours. Yesterday, the same thing also occurred though I slept for 8 hours. I wonder is it due to lack of sleeping hours in most of my days?