Fruits Of Joy

Cheerful
Leaping with joy
Easy to socialize with other children
Easily perspire
Loving to others

Fruits of my prayers for him
Manifest and brings blessings to others
Fruits of joy


Inspiration On: Sunday, 29 November 2015

Everybody feels that my son is adorable and sociable. The autistic teacher advises me to pray for him since foetus and bring him to Sunday school. It is a spiritual food for him. I’m glad I’m doing it for him to know Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour. His cheerfulness makes everybody so happy. I never expect Irene to tell that I am a praying mother.

Suddenly, he buys and gives me a can of NescafĂ©. Strange. Where does he gets the money? After helping out to bring dessert into the function room, I can’t find him. So I ask and find him sitting with other children and their parents. I go over to bring food for him. Then I find out a surprising thing. Unexpectedly, a sister in Christ gives him $1 to let him decide who to give. Unexpectedly, he chooses to give to me. I thought he is going to give to my mother who spends a lot of time with him. I feel embar-rassed for him to eat most of the French bread without realizing it. SS feels that it is good to let him enjoy the food outside once in a while rather than forcing him to eat. I listen. When he asks for my purse to buy another can for daddy, SS tells him I didn’t bring. I feel so speechless.

It is time to go home. SS and Pamli walk together with me to the train station. I enjoy the conversation with Pamli and gets excited to hear her organizing ice skating outing. My son is so caring to the little girl whom he has been playing at the playground. He let her to sit on his lap. He is also considerate and helpful to observe I have been pushing the trolley. So he pushes the trolley for me on our way home. I feel so happy to see him treats others well. At home he is so exhausted.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

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God’s Presence

The joy in the Lord to feel His presence and joy despite my husband chooses not to answer my text message to join our son and him for dinner at a restaurant. Reading the book about Social Entrepreneurship and answering the ten questions make me laugh. It is the question of I receive a mentor. It is the Lord’s doing to meet my business mentor. I have been remembering my interactions with her and the recent way she replies. I thank her for contacting BL to encourage me. She didn’t and told me, “You always assume…..!” My response, “Aren’t you often assume too and jump to conclusions?” is enough to trigger her sound like a kid too. “Sounds like a kid arguing. I can debate with you! Give me a case and I will clear with you”. My question, “What case, lawyer?” Thinking of this makes me laugh again especially her denial of her own age is considered senior citizen. Siti also laughs.

Thanks for completing the token of appreciation to my business mentor and write little poetry based on the meaning of her name.

A brother in Christ WY to call me instead of I call him. I confess to him that I feel so remorseful and worst to let my parents suffer with me. It is due to I listen to them and without realizing I ignore the Lord’s small still voice. I share the long term business goal is to let mothers bring their children to workplace. When I hear from him that God will deal with my husband for not admitting his mistakes, I feel so upset with myself and it is too late. The dreams and confirmation from my business mentor and hear about my maid’s mother became a widow. But I have passed him into God’s hands. Strangely I am not as grieved as before. The brother is surprised of the job offer $15 for an hour for 18 hours of work. As the return, she let me use her space to work for my business. He is surprised of the little miracle and that my business goal is according to His kingdom. He prays for me. Then I immediately call the lady to accept her kind offer.

She explains again $15 per hour for 18 hours work per week due to budget issue. But now she needs 20 hours work per week to improve her sales. I understand. It begins on 16 November. She sounds anticipating my coming.

My business mentor to respond to my ‘Accuser & Spoilt’ poetry, “Sounds familiar”. Then she continues, “Just focus on seeking God and serve Him living out His will and purposes. God blesses you with supporting parents and siblings.”

Then I am reminded of the career consultant’s words whom she refers to me. “Oh ya. I remember that YA mentioned that I am at the disadvantage due to my qualifications are not from local universities. So taking projects is the alternative way with a business partner. Can I give you 50% of the paid project amount? At first, it is to be paid 50% deposit of the project amount. After receive 50% deposit, then start to do the project.”

“What project?” She wonders.

“Animation projects. And other kind of projects. When I do children’s book and animation for a company, I ask for 50% deposit then I start the work. Come to think of it. I remember that even the cofounder of a production company gets the 50% deposit first then start the work.”

“Who gave you the project?”

“Haven’t got it yet. I’m processing YA’s words. Before I got it from a friend and a company finds me from google. Networking session can help too. I’m in charge of the production and you are in charge of meeting people. I’ve been reminded of my secondary days. It is part of our services besides coming out own products.”

“Need to discuss to understand what you are trying to say.”

“Ok. Once the part time admin ends and give you a treat at the cafe in the same mall.”

Today, I just find out my helper has been practicing drawing using my son’s pencil. It breaks my heart. Since I have bought a dozen of different pencil grades, I sharpen a set of it to her. I hope she can earn a living through designing and sewing clothes when the time is ripe for her. I share her my experiences how I improve my drawings. Then I cater it according to her fashion designing skills. I copy manga drawing only to earn own style. Recently, I copy logo designs. It turns out so well. For her case, it is to copy clothing designs at home and the manga I show her. She looks so happy and I feel so happy if she can reach her potential. I share my previous full time work experiences as an admin to assist my ex-boss, accounts and shipping departments. After I my animation studies, I cover the admin who replaced me due to cancer operation. My boss and even the accountant wants to offer me the job. I feel bad to replace the one who replace me. She is entering into middle aged. My lady boss sends her message through the son. It is better for me to get a job somewhere else rather than stay in the small company without further career advancement. Strange for her to say so. However, I am reminded of a staff whom the lady boss told him to find another career due to no career advancement in her small company. That staff resigned and receive other job promotions with better pay. Life is strange. What does she sees in me? Is it the Lord’s love and favour? Even I wonder of an ex-colleague words who told me not to forget her. What does she sees in me?

Binding Ring Teeth

Binding Ring Teeth

Binding Ring Teeth


Inspiration On: Thursday, 3 October 2013 at 12:43am
Inspiration Ends On: Tuesday, 8 October 2013 at 5:28pm

Whenever I am binding books, my thirty nine months son delights to observe my doings. First time, he named the binding ring as teeth. Accepting his naming convention, I’m inspired of journal this. Thanks for my ministry team to photograph and design this.

Poetry & Illustration

Dazing
Daydreaming
Imagination runs wild
Observing every surroundings
Ache
Agony
Anger
Arrogance
Longing
Jealousy
Hatred
Fighting
Hurt
Pain
Love
Joy
Passion
Zeal
Sacrifice
Prayer
Hope
Dreams

Emit out via

Nib of pen on a piece of paper
Line by line
Writing a poetry
Pictures from mind

Paper in the typewriter
Alphabets stick onto papers
Line by line
Writing a poetry

Computer keyboard
Jotting in poetry
Alphabet by alphabet
Word by word
Line by line.

Nib of pen on a piece of paper
Lines
Curves
Ovals
Triangles
Squares
Rectangles
Illustrating pictures

Drawing tablet
Lines
Curves
Ovals
Triangles
Squares
Rectangles
Illustrating pictures.


Inspiration On: Thursday, 7 March 2013 at 12:14am

I don’t know what is going on in my mind. I’m a visual person and often being tongue-tied when I’m panic. And now I’m writing poetry. I don’t know what God has in store for me. Weird. Every words begin to fall and drop into my mind. But I still thank God for this experience.

Graph

Weather is like a graph
When it is extremely hot, then it is going to rain
After rain has ended, sense of freshness creeps in
Next, it returns to hot
And the cycle continues . . .

Emotion is like a graph
From joy to gladness
From gladness to depression
From depression to joy again
And the cycle continues . . .

Season change within a year
During Summer, anticipate Autumn
During Autumn, anticipate Spring
During Spring, anticipate Winter
During Winter, anticipate Summer
And the cycle continues . . .

All liken to
Acceleration then to
Deceleration and
Again to acceleration then to
Deceleration and
Return to acceleration.
Like a landscape full of
Mountains and valleys.


Inspiration On: Thursday, 1 November 2012 at 11:18am
Inspiration Ends On: Monday, 5 November 2012 at 3:21pm

When I liken my baby’s mood to weather, the above inspiration was birthed out. Next day, season inspiration came and following day is acceleration, deceleration, mountain and valley.