Emerging and Development

Full of “why” questions
Questioning own motives

Aligning myself according to
The Word of God
Questioning own abilities

Learning to identify
Natural abilities and learned skills
That emerge and develop through time

How do people around me view my strengths?
What do they see in me?
Do they see Jesus’ strength in my weaknesses?

Inspiration On: Friday, 20 May 2016

The two days leadership workshop enable me to learn about myself and how my Lord Jesus works through me despite my weaknesses. Wish you all have good days and thank you.


Sensing the presence of God
In my heart
Ease my heart and mind

His strength is upon me
Learning to find a matter out
Clear my assumptions

Inspiration On: Thursday, 14 January 2016

Today is the service module on the topic ‘Work in a Diverse Service Environment’ last session. I see God’s favour upon me through the trainer named LM who always remembers my small gesture to fix the sound problem. I approach the man about the graphic design job. I self-learn it myself. He highlighted I need to go for the course skill. Just now in the class, he revealed he is 65 years old, an Anglican Christian from certain part of India. He said that he didn’t go to church because he is always giving help to everyone. He does it for free solely to help. He can’t accept money to return his help. Or else it is likened to business transactions. In the class, he just teaches how to breathe appropriately with nose to relieve stress. I thank the Lord to find favour through LM and he shares my self-assessment publicly in my expectation from him. I feel embarrassed. JG my classmate to explain the partnership with LM to use my animation in his slides. Good idea. I clarify with IM. He has another company to earn income. However, he just opens this nonprofit solely to offer help. He uses the money from his money making company to inject money into this nonprofit company. This nonprofit company is solely for helping those who wants to hone their skills. He works closely with the government and the school. And he needs to reach minimally 500 people. He pays more than $40 per person to attend this expensive and valuable course.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Restart and Re-learn

Restart and Re-Learn
Restarting new life
Re-learning everything in life
Asking directions
Outside home

Inspiration On: Friday, 6 November 2015 at 9:50pm

The bruise under my right eye lessen though laugh cause pain and my forehead points are in pain.

Today is my pay day so I go to the office to collect my cheque. My supervisor understands I want to cash out the cheque so she does not cross out the cheque. She kindly explains to me that cheque shouldn’t be crossed if need to cash it out. However, she warns me that if I drop it, anybody can cash it out.

I ask my business mentor about the pandora voucher. She explains it is jewelry shop. After I collect the $20 pandora voucher at funan, I inform my business mentor because I don’t know what to do with it. I don’t wear jewelry. She also does not fancy jewelry. So I ask the redemption shop on pandora outlet. She explains that I can call the mobile provider to ask for another useful voucher even though I win it. So I walk to the nearest pandora outlet. Everything is so expensive especially the gold. I can only afford the sterling silver. So I use the $20 voucher to offset the earring price and treat it as a gift to mum.

Oh no! Why am I re-learning everything? Why do my life seems to restart? This is saddening. I still want to move on.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Water safety training is a necessity for children with autism

I do love swimming and I ever drowned in the swimming pool during my toddlerhood. Surprisingly, I just jumped into the pool and my butt hits the floor of the pool silently. I do not move. Sitting silently in the pool. 

When I couldn’t breath, I breath in the water. Oh, it was a water so I breath it out and see bubbles. Strange that I get fascinated with such sight. This perspective was an unforgettable event. 

At the other end of the pool, my cousins and sister signaled to my mum. Thank God for my mother to quickly picked me out of the pool.  Thereby, I can testify that Water safety training is a necessity for children with autism really is true. Thus it is necessary for the autistics to learn to swim. 

There are more laughable yet drowning events. During my childhood to learn to swim coached by my dad, I was so frustrated not being able to swim. My dad was busy coaching my elder sister, younger brother and my mum. Without informing, I left the children pool hastily. Stomping to the adult pool and I hopped into the middle of the pool. Since my feet couldn’t touch the floor of the pool, my hands and feet hit against the water like a duck. I can only thank The Lord for a man to save me and I do not have the chance to say thank you. The man who saved pushed me to the side of the pool without showing his face. Quietly, I return to the children pool. My body couldn’t move up after the froggy style. The drowned event was forgotten. Thus the same cycle occurred thrice. 

Mother’s Extreme Cares

Lemon juice no sugar
She pour sugar into it
Worried of me having stomach gastric
But I have no such problem
Sour food doesn’t taste sour to me
But her taste bud taste sour sensitively

Baggy t-shirts is awful to her
Destroying her sight seeing
But it feels good to me
Especially windy days
Wind enters into the t-shirts
Cooling to the body
Might as well she hides in the room

Nags to dry my hair
After my shower
Nags to dry to my hair
Before I left home
Nags, nags, nags
Nags like a rewinding tape
Nags like a parrot

Oh, my ears are tired
But have to endure and learning to correct her gently
Her nagging concern

Inspiration On: Monday, 14 October 2013 at 1:17am
Inspiration Ends On: Wednesday, 15 October 2013 at 11:51pm

My mother is extremely caring. But she tends to do things her way of concern in her point of view. Going through this, I learnt something valuable. Rather than concern with own point of view, I need to understand the recipients’ needs. Everyone has own needs and perspective as long as it didn’t compromise God’s Words.