Lonely Life

Loneliness residing inside
Despair in life
Living in this lonely world
Though I seek to understand others

Full of ravaging wolves
Preying on my caring hearts
Wounding it to the core

Lacking understanding hearts
Produce deflectors
Causing

One feet forward yet half feet backward
Towards my destination
Confusions are battling within

Now
Wishing to be invisible
Resting from many labours

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Inspiration On: Tuesday, 17 March 2015 at 4:45pm

My many mistakes hurt my heart. It is the mistake to care others yet others do not seek to understand me. Though some nice people encourage me to move forward, some even deters me from moving forward. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Voiceless

Brushing own opinion aside
Casting own voice away
Dragged by others’ decision
Am I voiceless?

Too caring?
Too concern?
Living in accordance to others’ voice
Am I voiceless?

Unwilling to hurt others’ feelings
But I am hurting inside
Alive but voiceless
Losing myself
Loneliness rule

Voicing out
Only to be rejected
Only to be misunderstood
Loneliness rule

Taken for granted?
Taken advantaged?
Loneliness rule
Am I voiceless?

Am I voiceless . . . ?
Are my opinions worthless?
Does ………
……. anybody
……………….. care?

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Inspiration On: Monday, 21 April 2014 from 12:45am to 4:38am

Current upheaval life from inside and outside rubbed salt into my past pain and worsened it deeply. Thus, such feelings evokes and birthing out this poetry. Wish you all have good days and thank you for reading my poetry.

Ocean of Woe

Drifting aimlessly
On the vast ocean
Ocean of life’s troubles
Ocean of woes
Floating around sorrowfully
Nowhere to go
Wondering
Feeling lonely
Hoping to find
A destination
An island
Island of team-ship rather than competition

Passing by many islands
Many islands reject after squeezing me
Give! Give! Give!
All these drain enthusiasm in me
Wearing me out
Where is the island?
The island of mutual understanding and respect
Not the dead sea island

Where is the island?
The island where I can rest
The island of mutual understanding and respect
The island of truthfulness
The island of complementing mutual needs

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Inspiration On: Tuesday, 8 October 2013 at 9:51pm
Inspiration On: Thursday, 10 October 2013 at 12:18pm

Whenever failed attempts of finding a full time job after having a child for more than three years, I feel downcast. Am I drifting aimlessly in my job search? I wish to support my parents financially. Whenever there is time, I surf the Internet at home and reply to emails and comments due to financial restriction. Some bosses squeezed me and refused to pay me the little income for the work I have done. Making excuses and even empty promises. Only consider their own interests without considering employees’ needs. These really kill my enthusiasm in my work. Don’t I need to eat? Can’t I earn a living? Their motto is their own benefit. When they want to train me, they say beautiful words.

Serene in the Crowd

Serene
Dwelling in quietness
Amidst the crowd
No lonely feeling
Peaceful feeling instead
When

Riding
Planes
Automobiles
Trains

The time to enjoy
The ride
The scenery
My observation
The rest in my heart and mind
Eyes are at rest with the scenery
Relax feeling
Lost in music from Walkman in my ear
Losing myself in imagination

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Inspiration On: Thursday, 27 June 2013 at 11:25pm to 11:36pm

Such feelings are generated when I read Terry’s inspiration at her blog. Enjoy.

Left Behind

Lost among the planets
Lonely planet
Isolated planet
Alone in the universe
Left to itself to survive
Striving to live
Struggling
Will it live?
Let’s see
Its survival

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Inspiration On: Tuesday, 18 June 2013 from 5:23pm to 5:28pm

Being inspired with the book cover by Penny at http://thewhyaboutthis.com/2013/06/17/join-the-writing-fun-lets-write-a-book-report/, this is a fun creative writing. The first two lines birthed out upon looking and observing Penny’s book cover. Enjoy.

Shrouded with Mystery

Dark shadow covers his face
Sitting on the glass armchair
Shrouded with mystery
Giving out mysterious aura
Intriguing curiosity
Basking interest
Though protecting
True identity
Feeling shy
Among crowds.
Hiding in the shadow
Hiding in the corner
Loneliness inside.

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Inspiration On: Friday, 9 November 2012 at 12:25am
Inspiration Ends On: Sunday, 11 November 2012 at 2:30pm

When I was imagining people with multiple identities, three words were ringing in my head, “shrouded with mystery.” The next day, other words flowed out and revised. Finally, the first and second lines are added to explain the picture in my mind.