Extreme Opposing Patterns

Judge others harshly
Lack of understanding
Overlook own mistakes
Extremely self-forgiving
Finding fault on others
Searching for scapegoats
Seeking control on others’ lives
Protecting own interest

Extremely forgiving others’ mistakes easily
Full of empathy and understanding
No excuse with own mistakes
Admit own faults
Beware of being the scapegoat
Be sensitive to manipulative spirits
Protect others’ interest
Seek the Lord’s intervention to stop being controlled

Circumstances and situations
May cause
Both extremes switch places
Thus the cycle continues

Maintain self-care purpose
In order to
Care others require
Recognise the higher power
Omnipotent God sees
Seeking my Lord and Saviour
To be the person whom the Lord wants

Inspiration On: Tuesday, 14 September 2016

It has been months I have been feeling miserable. My cell leader has been highlighting to me repetitively to learn to self care so that I can care others. I begin realise that it is my mistakes to let others enter into my boundaries. I refuse to let my patterns to continue and ask God for wisdom. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Judgmental / Poor Listeners

Assumes beforehand
Quick to judge
Quick to stereotype
Quick to finish up sentences
Quick to speak
Ear drums are filtered
Full of opinions
Overlook unexpected important heart-to-heart issues
Instantly jump into conclusions

Inspiration On: Monday, 5 September 2016

Suddenly, my ex-mentor attempts to help me. Then I begin to understand her good intention by trying to help me with her way. Then she admits her weaknesses for being judgmental. Then I admit my recent newfound strength is being a good listener. However, it can be my weaknesses as I share my cases. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Understand yet Misunderstand

Most people tend
To listen with own assumptions
Understanding based on their experiences
Awaiting to give their suggestions

Such cause more relationships conflicts
Parents and elderly
Choose to forget their own ordeal
Thus children are exasperated

The vicious cycle continues

Inspiration On: Sunday, 3 January 2016

I am late to wake up at 8:30am. I praise God for the immediacy to go to church service at nearby church for spiritual food and late around 15 minutes. Though I fall asleep in the sermon due to lack of sleep, I thank the Lord to get the message to find life in the Spirit stated in Romans 8:1-17. Indeed I can find life in the Holy Spirit. I feel His deep love. In the flesh, I feel so weak. I can add that I feel suicidal due to my weaknesses and wishing the Lord to take me home. Now, I have been forgetting certain things. Though mum helps me to apply acupressure onto the points, she encourages me to do it myself. Does she know when my hands lose strength? Do I have to tell her? Then I question her understanding of me. All along she thought I write with my right hand. That shows she doesn’t fully understand me. After she does so, I can sense the electric current in my fingers flowing. And I feel better.

Mako and SS ever mentioned that only them take the time to understand me. But they don’t fully understand me also.

Finally, I see the fruits WhatsApp status from my business mentor’s messages. She is concerned of me to get a job. Lord, what do you want me to do first? Social enterprise or the full time job first? Should I speak to get the volunteers from Facebook group.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.