Needing Intervention

Own friend is away attending meeting
Lunchtime with supervisor and male colleagues
On the way to nearby food stall
Supervisor offers to convert
Temporary to a permanent position
Awaiting me to give green light
Seek my opinion
Let me to do consideration

As expected of such ending
Inside calling unto my Lord
What should I do?
Needing my Lord for intervention
Remembering my vow unto the Lord
Awaiting His green light
For a mentor and a group of team
Executing the business idea


Inspiration On: Monday, 18 April 2016

Thank God and thankful for many events. CMF guides me though she says that she doesn’t fully understand and has past experience in her previous company. Mum and brother ask about my new job. I can only answer as it is. I don’t understand. When I repeat my friend’s words, they also get a shock and speechless.

My ex-mentor to give me the green light to do plugin freelance job offered by her friend who is capable without IT knowledge yet understanding. She also explain not to force myself too much. Do I look that way? How can my ex-mentor tell?

Since CMF goes for meeting, my supervisor asks me out to lunch with other male colleagues. A colleague’s wife works in a graphic design company who receives a long deadline to do the work. That’s amazing. I wish to work there, Lord. My supervisor seeks my opinion to convert me to permanent staff. I respond that I make mistakes and trying to cope. He keeps on comforting me that I cope well. So I instantly respond to let me consider. Inside I am crying to God knowing such an end. Lord, please open the door to the media industry. So that I can fulfill my vow to You. Strangely, my animation lecturer words echoes “when people have confidence in you, they will invest in you”. Then I am reminded of Ha asks me on the children’s media job since I am looking for it. Because I need the experience.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Many Events

Referred a client
God’s favour through my ex-mentor
Grateful for the opportunity
Being transparent
In my interest yet willing to learn
Willing to reduce price
Awaiting for green light to start

Own husband chooses to
Accede to the new maid’s request
Sending her back to the agent
Notion of him pretend to forget
Irritates me off
Signaling me he does it in purpose
Impatiently reminding today’s class
He points out my tone so I restrain it

Seeking God towards the nearby church
Preaching in loving God
Through loving others
What is God doing?
Appreciate mum’s help to send my son home
Rush to attend biblical married couple course
Meet a sister and take the same bus
Reach the church building

In the course
Disappointed with self
Not realizing the nudge from my Lord
Before anything happens
The worse I feel to disappoint my Lord
Feel like a fool
For being caring too much
Own pride is gone

Awaken of own’s strengths and mistakes
Admit to say
I don’t want to follow my parents footsteps
1 Corinthians 10:12-14 enables me
Summing myself
I do get affected by others easily
Own dad’s words echo “don’t be scared easily”
The more I understand my son

Ending the class admitting to my cell members
I do get affected by others easily
They respond wanting me to speak up
But I choose not to talk about it
Deep reason
Unable to express the right words instantly
Giving others the wrong meaning
Awaiting God’s green light


Inspiration On: Sunday, 17 April 2016

Today’s sermon to affirm the Lord’s guidance in my life and my belief in Jesus in the verses, “love God” and “love your neighbour as yourself”. However, still no confirmation on, “treat others as the way you want to be treated”.

My ex-mentor introduces a client to me, speaks on my behalf, asks an increase of $100 for me. Appreciate her to accept my honest feedback interested yet willing to learn.

PL, sister in Christ, looks so happy that her new maid comes. I feel so happy. And I find it funny because my husband sends the new maid to the agency. She asks my budget on my affordability to eat at food court or restaurant. Though I wish to go to hawker centre, I relent to accompany her to restaurant. Because I don’t want her to feel hot. Surprisingly, the lunch at Jack’s Place cost around $16 including tax for each person. She knows where to find affordable yet good food.

J, our cell member, joins us at Jack’s place then we attend biblical leadership course for married couples together. After the class, she helps to find a more affordable office wear.

A surprise. I see a stack of papers with the maid’s profile. Then mum informs me that my son tells his dad that he still can’t take care of himself because he is still young. Therefore, he is choosing a new maid. Among all maids, one is good.

My brother tells mum about what happen at home. Before I return home, my husband calls his mother with room door opened wide. He speaks loudly to tell his mum no need to come here and he is under frustration.

My brother informs mum on my husband’s doing. He opens the room door opened wide and calls his mother.

“What is he lying about?” That’s my instant response. My room door is widely opened. He speaks loudly to let others hear. His mum asks in mandarin, “Do you need me to go?” He responds, “No need to come. I’m under frustration.” A sudden nudge in me. Seems that my mother in law is coming.

My son often runs into my mum’s room during brushing teeth. He is driving me crazy. I slightly raise my voice him, “You don’t like me?! Do you?” Inside I lose hope.

“No,” is his reply. That baffles me.

A blog post photo flashes in my mind. She sleeps with her baby. Therefore, I go to my son’s bed and hug him before he sleeps. For the first time, he wants me to sleep beside him. Upon knowing I apply hot muscle joint pain paste, he wants me to return to my bed.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Good Actions with Good Intention Withdraws

Intending to learn cooking
According to mum’s guidance
Joyfully checking my mobile phone
A sudden message from own husband
Instil a bad sense into my heart and mind

Needing solace and peaceful environments
Recharging my whole being and mind
Immediately leaving the house
Towards the nearby library
Awaiting mum and son

Pouring to the Lord
Asking the Lord a few times
Should I take on the mini project?
A project my ex-mentor refers to me
Needing the Lord in every small decisions

Make two big rounds into every part of library
All seat are fully occupied and need the toilet
Asking the Lord for a seat with power plug
The me returns after the toilet break
An empty seat and I occupy it

Use the MacBookAir that
The Lord blesses for many minutes
Sudden sense to notice the battery level
Before it prompts and warns me for energy
Immediate sense to stand and roam for a seat

Roaming into another part near the corner Noticing a lady leaves and I found a seat
Placing books onto it and return to the
First seat to move own things over
Charging all devices and phones

Mum and son finds me to
Have dinner together with the maid
Suggesting how to settle and speak out
A strong sense knowing it is pointless to say
Still need to face him and to speak out my point

Strength enters into heart and mind to face him
Observe his tone to insist returning the maid
Speaking out in order to reason with him
Letting him to open our drawer to keep
The maid’s passport

By pretending to leave the room
Informing own mother to call dad back
Return to own room and to see the truth
He locks it in his own drawer immediately
Then he takes shower and sound very happy

When I want to speak with our son
He calls our son loudly from the room
To speak with his mother on the phone
Our son speaks to her that the maid returns
On Monday will be on his own and by himself

Why would our son says so?
O Lord, which one is the truth?
What are You doing, Lord God?
Full of questions yet marvel my Lord
Trusting Him with process of my destination


Inspiration On: Saturday, 16 April 2016

Last night, my mum prepares lunch and dinner for my husband and I. I intend to heat up the food and fully cook it.

Last night, my husband messages me, “Tomorrow after lunch please bring maid to the maid agency train stop (including her passport & permit). Will meet you there to send her back to agent. Thks”

“Sorry. I can’t do it so soon.” I respond immediately.

Today, my mum treats new maid and her grandson lunch and dinner. My elder sister to get zoo tickets for mum, brother, my son, and new maid. Actually, she wants to invite our brother’s girlfriend. However, she can’t make it. So I let the maid goes to the zoo.

Today, I intend to cook dinner for my husband and I. Upon checking my mobile phone, I see his message, “Why cannot? Is after lunch. The reason I ask u to bring her to the train station is because I work morning, so no need to come back & bring her out again.” That message causes me to have cold feet. I feel disappointed. I respond, “My sister has tickets to the zoo. So she and our son go to the zoo.”

“Where is the maid?” he enquires.

Am I unclear? I’m implying the maid goes to the zoo with our son. Quickly I reply, “She goes to the zoo.”

He assumes, “I thought u said ur sister & our son go to zoo? Why become maid go zoo? Who else going zoo? I need to bring her back to agent. What time maid be back? Thks”

“The “she” means the maid. She’ll be back after dinner.” I clarify.

In the end, instead of exercising after lunch, I quickly leaves the house to go to the nearby library. Because I need a peaceful environment to quiet down and recharge rather than a conflicting environment. It feels good to be in the library and doing something and wait for mum to return home with my son. My dad’s words keep echoing, “don’t be scared easily”. So I ask the Lord for strength and courage.

When my son gives the new maid sweets, she answers his grandma says cannot. Sudden acute sense the maid lies. Knowing the Lord makes me realise this.

My son confides in me that his dad blames him for bringing new maid to the zoo. So I want to tell mum. Mum tells me my son confesses to her. He tells the maid to say she doesn’t want to go back to agent and she wants to stay here. However, she replies that she is scared to say so. I disbelieve the maid’s words. Because yesterday she can cause
my husband to wake me up to bring her to work.

The courage to speak out to my husband that the maid cannot return to the agent easily. She needs to wait for the new replacement. It is likened to working for people. When you want to leave, you can not instantly leave. You need to wait for the new replacement. He doesn’t respond. Sensing strange feelings when my husband calls our son loudly to listen to the phone. Our son talks on the phone to his grandmother that he will be independent at home since the maid will return to the agent tomorrow.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Gentle Comical Tone to Point Mistake

Re-learn new ways
Gentle yet comical tone
Pointing mistakes
Choose to delete the wrong email

Sense of gratefulness
Sips into my heart and mind
Appreciate her to do so
Knowing the Lord’s kindness upon me


Inspiration On: Thursday, 14 April 2016

Good that today I have the time for myself during lunch time. It feels good. I thank the Lord that the automated overdue invoices via email VBA code is completed and I am perfecting it by adding other needed fields for future employees to use. I feel so grateful for the macro programmer choose not to put my name in it. It is to protect me from others misusing my name.

A government officer suddenly calls. She informs me in a gentle, graceful and comical tone that I send another two government department invoices to her. Therefore, she choose to delete the wrong emails. Very embarrassing. I thank her and quickly re-check. I thought I am wrong. After I re-check it from the company’s database system again, the system shows the wrong information. She can point my mistake gently yet make it sounds funny in order not to make feel so bad. I feel so thankful. I tell my friend about it. She explains to me to make sure the email in the database system is correct. It is also people who key in the information.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Promptings

Continuous impressions of the
Persistent widow
Thus I walk repetitively towards the programmer
Seeking the right keywords
A sudden permission from me
Use his ways to re-produce my concept
Giving my consent
Stop bugging
Final result is produced professionally

May the Lord
Repetitively blesses me
With such promptings


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 13 April 2016

Luke 18:1-8 about the parable of persistent widow impresses me a lot. So I walk towards the macro programmer many times to ask for help on the VBA keywords. Because I feel stuck. Then I choose not to go in order not to irritate him. He seeks my permission to do it his way. I allow him and he helps me to redo all with his ways. This is also another way to write the program code. In the end, the automated email to send overdue invoices are completed. However, there is another part I need to add. The sender’s name. I can learn from him and asks.

Good to have the time for myself during lunch time.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Declutter to Focus

Observe more
Draw more
Experiences
Out of real life
Focus on certain actions
Appreciating its only essence
Reminding childhood memories

Many experiences
Overlapping each other
Thus overwhelms my brain
It’s time to
Declutter from all
Awful life experiences
To return to my focused mind


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 12 April 2016

The animator trainer looks at my storyboard assignment based on his script. He reminds the notes from the previous lesson. It is based on certain angles, and the importance of clarity in my mind in order to communicate clearly. He also explains the need to focus on certain parts of a person’s actions. Observe to appreciate it then draw it out. That makes me feel I need to practice drawing more. Drawing helps me to declutter my mind.

YM, my classmate’s boyfriend gives me a lift to the nearest train station. So I can return home from the train. Great to know her that drawing doesn’t help to declutter mind. She is created differently. Then I share that overlapping experiences overwhelms.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Executable Idea Submission Day

Today is the
Green initiative submission day
Sense the
Cooperative spirit
God’s favour
Through my supervisor
The son God blesses
Anticipate me to return home


Inspiration On: Monday, 11 April 2016

CMF approaches me on the green day initiative submission. Thank God for the sudden edit the wording for the submission. I speak up to write my name rather than the two colleagues in charge of the writing. Because I’m the one who writes the coding. Or else there is going to be confusion. And I speak up that I hope to express it correctly. My supervisor assures the people can help in the write up for green day initiative submissions.

After I edit my write up, she emails to the person in charge and a carbon copy to me. Then she also attaches the PowerPoint about the green day initiative. I’m surprised that she and the macro programmer are in the champion team. When I clarify with her, she mentions that the person before her receives the champion award.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Marvellous Time

Amazed of my Lord’s blessings and timing
A marvellous God
Upon my family and situation
My heart is full of gratitude

Few days ago
Own Mother seeks my permission to bring my son
To attend my nephew’s newborn baby shower
Agree to let her bring and let him enjoy with other children

Today is the day to rush the writing for
Green initiative of the executed coding ideas
Boiling and arising in my heart and mind
To be a blessing to the current company


Inspiration On: Saturday, 9 April 2016

The Lord works marvellously beforehand. He goes before me. My mum brings my son and he wants to follow her for my nephew’s newborn baby shower. Today is the day I need to write about green initiative for my executed automation coding idea. Though I have read others’ writing on their ideas, none are applicable to me. Therefore, I write about my own executed excel VBA codes. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Better Self-Understanding

Hard to see own strengths
Others see and point my strengths
Though I confess my own weaknesses

Feelings of unworthiness
Cloud my conscience
Magnified before my eyes

No deterrence to such feelings
Still willing to stand up and do my best
Obediently listen to the call of my life


Inspiration On: Thursday, 7 April 2016

A lot of reflections are going through in my heart and mind. Seeking to understand myself better and how my Lord Jesus strengthens me. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Many Perspectives In An Issue

Two company customers
SCOLD
Without me knowing head and tail of the issue

Choose to keep silent and apologise
Strength through the Holy Spirit
See the situation through many different perspectives

Endless cycle of perspectives from
Different lenses with
Diverse feelings and mindsets

Broken communications amongst different departments
Hurting employee’s feelings and self-esteem
Customers’ needs are not met

A customer harshly scold foul languages
Only to realize he chose to engage the company’s service
Blames the company instead of his own choice

Another customer scolds due to nobody returns her call
Close friend and I react thus she guides me to check the matter and write email
A colleague proves a point for a customer to scold empty words

Second investigation causes my friend and I
Stick to our supervisor’s email
Apologise to the lady of the correct amount to pay


Inspiration On: Friday, 8 April 2016

I am working in a company. I am scolded by two customers. The Holy Spirit enables me to calm down and to see from many different perspectives. Yesterday is a man who scold with foul languages and even calling the company blood suckers. When I analyze his thoughts, he is the one who chooses to sign up for the company’s service. Since he wants to use the company’s device and service, he needs to pay them. A lady speaks angrily that she is going to return payment terminal and prepare the cheque payment tomorrow. A colleague has a point too. Some customers say they will return the machine. However, they don’t return it. It is better for her to return by tomorrow in order to prevent this month’s charges. She says she doesn’t use the machine. Should I believe her, Lord? Other customers are very understanding. He and she explains gently that their company wants to terminate our company’s payment service and even care whether they owe the company money on the made transaction. Other customers pay punctually and continually uses the service.

Current company come out with a lot of time, money and resources to build the device and pay their employees. The small businesses just need to pay $30 to $40 per month or even a few hundred dollars of annual fee to use the machines and services. It is likened to buy movie tickets to watch movies and/or animation. Nowadays, the people’s mindsets tend towards free instead of considering many people’s sacrifices on their time, money and mental energy being spent to produce the best product. Wish you all have good days and thank you.