Overstretch My Limits

Chronic migraine tires me
Own mum often bring me for checkup
Being labeled with
Mental breakdown diagnosis

Problems find me
Seeking to solve it with own hands
Depending on God to bless me with
Wisdom and strength

Seeking to protect others
Entertaining vast people and piles of workload
Without realizing
Draining most energy

Sisters in Christ come
Telling me
“You spread yourself too thin”
“Focus point”

Overstretch my finances
Overstretch my time
Overstretch my mental strength
Prepared to face death

Pointing fingers claiming understand me
Increase my deep guilt
This cause me tired of living
Seeking the Lord to take me away

Jesus’ hands stretch out to me
Through others
Whenever I feel cornered
Pouring strength into my heart

Breaking into poetry becomes natural
Though writing is a challenge
Literature exams scare me
Another broken wall

Praise the Lord, O my soul
Thus far the Lord has helped me
Breaking forth into new songs
May Jesus be glorified through me

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Inspiration On: Saturday, 12 March 2016

I enjoy the worship time and sermon time though I don’t like the closed light environment and the loud music. Lord, I love it with bright light. J dozes off again during sermon. Last week I just let her rest on my shoulder. It must be tiring for her. However, I remember Irene Leow asked her to wake up to listen to the sermon.

Today’s sermon is from Acts and how God spared Apostle Paul’s life from murder plot. It speaks to me how God preserves my life and deliver me from more harm. I never expect that I am still alive. I thought I’m going to die.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Christmas Blessing

I learn to inform SS that I am going to her hair salon. Then I go to her shop. Suddenly, she blesses me with a chain as the accessory for my new clothes. When I share I like a particular shoes, she goes down to the shop with me. She looks at it and suggests to add more than $10 to get a good quality leather shoes. It cost $50 due to Christmas sale. She helps me to prioritize to go to church Christmas service then tomorrow can spend time with my family members.

At the FCBC church service at suntec city, I meet MK. I feel embarrassed to be praised by her on yesterday’s salvation. I reply to do my best. I enjoy my worship with Jesus. Many times I am reminded of my son’s stretching hands wanting hugs and being carried. Therefore, I learn to stretch out my hands to my Lord. A sister gives me a bear soft toy for my son. So I don’t need to ask for it on his behalf. Then I join SS and MK to TP for catch up. MK buys me a drink at MOS burger. They listen to my problems and pray for me.

Unexpectedly, my decision to go to church can bring a blessing to SS too. One of her widow classmates intend to come to her shop to go to church together. Suddenly, that widow friend calls her to join with two other widows out to another place to drown sorrow. SS replies that she is going with me to church. She shares this issue to MK.

Problem Solving

Others need help
I readily lend my help
Solve their problems
Through listening then speak on their behalf
Problems are solved
They are happy
Even I am happy for them

My own problems paralyze me
Others lend their help
Solve my problems
Through listening and speak own my behalf
Amazingly my problems are solved
I feel so appreciative
They are happy for me

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Inspiration On: Wednesday, 25 November 2015

Suddenly, my husband shows his concern and asks about the result of MacBookAir repair. I share as it is. I’m shocked for him to give me $300 to send for repair. He even mentions to give me November and December allowance in a given day. Wait for end of year sale to buy MacBookAir. He becomes so loving and gives me a kiss. Strange. How does God works? Does my dad’s words create a big impact in him? I can solve others’ problem. But I can’t solve my own problem until others offer their help. Embarrassing!

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

People With Autism May Be More Creative: Study

TechTimes begin with the notion that autistic people tend to produce quality over quantity. I agree. Now, my friends and I begin to understand ourselves better. We are often feel upset on our lack of quantity in our work. However, our teachers feel we have unusual ideas. But we able to solve the problems. 😝 We thank our Lord to able to solve the problems by contributing our part. 

Cycle of Blessings

Earn money honestly
Is to
Sell hard work
Sell perspiration
Sell skills
Sell time
A problem solver attitude
Motivated to solve problem
Learn life skills
Bless fishing rod to younger generations

Adding legacy to society
Leaving good legacy to future generations
Helps the society
Strengthen the poor and weak
Bless fishing rod to them
They bless others
Glorifying the Creator

Blessings overflow the society
As governments and people bless one another
The cycle of blessings
Blessed societies
Blessed cities
Blessed provinces
Blessed countries
Creator’s hands of blessings

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Inspiration On: Wednesday, 13 November 3013 at 6:30pm
Inspiration Ends On: Saturday, 16 November 2013 at 2pm

Since young, I have been hearing about my grandparents’ hard works. How they earn income as restaurant dish cleaner. Gradually, they turn into entrepreneurs and bless their villagers. My parents also work hard and I have seen it since young. This really shaped my thinking and actions though I still gullible and taken advantage. Thank God this poetry overflows now.

Mother’s Extreme Cares

Lemon juice no sugar
She pour sugar into it
Worried of me having stomach gastric
But I have no such problem
Sour food doesn’t taste sour to me
But her taste bud taste sour sensitively

Baggy t-shirts is awful to her
Destroying her sight seeing
But it feels good to me
Especially windy days
Wind enters into the t-shirts
Cooling to the body
Might as well she hides in the room

Nags to dry my hair
After my shower
Nags to dry to my hair
Before I left home
Nags, nags, nags
Nags like a rewinding tape
Nags like a parrot

Oh, my ears are tired
But have to endure and learning to correct her gently
Her nagging concern

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Inspiration On: Monday, 14 October 2013 at 1:17am
Inspiration Ends On: Wednesday, 15 October 2013 at 11:51pm

My mother is extremely caring. But she tends to do things her way of concern in her point of view. Going through this, I learnt something valuable. Rather than concern with own point of view, I need to understand the recipients’ needs. Everyone has own needs and perspective as long as it didn’t compromise God’s Words.

Depression vs Jealousy

Depressed
Demon
Whispers
Suicide thoughts
As solution
Leading to
Eternal death

Jealousy
Demon
Shouts
LASH
As solution
Leading to
Destruction

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Inspiration On: Friday, 19 July 2013 from 1:30am to 8:04pm

While conversing on the phone about my friend’s plight who didn’t talk about her husband’s mother’s doings to her husband, this poetry birthed out about my friend and her mother in law. Though she can’t believe her mother in law has possessive mental problem.