Erupt Feelings

Shocking news
Disheartening news
Discouragement sets in
My heart sinks
Sinks down to
The bottom of dark hole.

Tears well up in my eyes
Attempt to hold it
Prevent to show it
Painful feelings erupt
Unknown its origin
As if knowing
My mum’s feelings
When she lost
My eldest
In a car accident.

Painful feelings erupt.
Hide myself
Hiding myself in a toilet’s cubicle
As my tears roll down
Roll down continuously
Pray to control
Such painful emotions.
Huge waves of emotions
Splash against the rock
Struck against the rock
The rock of my heart.

Inspiration On: Sunday, 31 March 2013 from 3:02am to 12:40pm

Before my husband took an aeroplane yesterday, he called me up around 3pm. When I heard that his elder brother passed away, my heart sank down. My friends and I had been praying for his healing when I heard he was hospitalized due to breathing difficulty. The news disheartened me.

Refer: Buried Longing

Slippery & Hard

As slippery as an eel
He runs away from the punishment clutches
Being chased by the clutcher

As soft as an eel
He prevents the capturer from carrying him
Through both of his armpits

As hard as a rock
Clenching fingers tightly to prevent pain from
His father’s and grandfather’s slap

As soft as an eel
He slouches on grandfather’s right leg who
Tries to dribble him out
With the notion to treat as swing
Fully enjoying the swinging ride

This is not the ending
After bath, he climbs onto sofa top
Naked. SLAP! Buttock is painful.

Inspiration On: 6 October 2011 at 12:26am
Revised At: 6:06pm

Whenever I observe and think of my toddler who often has his own ways of getting away from being caught and forcefully carried out of the kitchen, the above inspirations are birthed out. My parents, my helper, and I often feel that my toddler is as slippery as an eel. Remembering the sight of my dad and/or my husband who are going to slap my son’s palm, he willingly stretches out his hand but with hard clench fingers. This occurs since my toddler is after 1 years old. My dad is trying to kick my son softly out of the kitchen by thrusting his foot onto his buttock, but he softens his body and lays on it by treating his grandfather’s leg as a swing. After he has shower, normally, we put him onto the sofa and he daringly climbs onto the top of the sofa. So I often give him a warning before slapping his buttock. But I still slap him due to ensure his safety.

Even though my family and I had a good laugh of my toddler’s mischief and wrongdoings, we still believe to teach and guide the child to prepare for his future moral issue.

Now, some of his attitude and behaviour improve. Please refer to “Beware! Be Careful!