Sensing the presence of God
In my heart
Ease my heart and mind
His strength is upon me
Learning to find a matter out
Clear my assumptions
Inspiration On: Thursday, 14 January 2016
Today is the service module on the topic ‘Work in a Diverse Service Environment’ last session. I see God’s favour upon me through the trainer named LM who always remembers my small gesture to fix the sound problem. I approach the man about the graphic design job. I self-learn it myself. He highlighted I need to go for the course skill. Just now in the class, he revealed he is 65 years old, an Anglican Christian from certain part of India. He said that he didn’t go to church because he is always giving help to everyone. He does it for free solely to help. He can’t accept money to return his help. Or else it is likened to business transactions. In the class, he just teaches how to breathe appropriately with nose to relieve stress. I thank the Lord to find favour through LM and he shares my self-assessment publicly in my expectation from him. I feel embarrassed. JG my classmate to explain the partnership with LM to use my animation in his slides. Good idea. I clarify with IM. He has another company to earn income. However, he just opens this nonprofit solely to offer help. He uses the money from his money making company to inject money into this nonprofit company. This nonprofit company is solely for helping those who wants to hone their skills. He works closely with the government and the school. And he needs to reach minimally 500 people. He pays more than $40 per person to attend this expensive and valuable course.
Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Explore small lane
Wandering many places
Adventure into the unknown
Without sense of danger
Swimming pool appeals me
Inspiration On: Saturday, 30 May 2015 at 1:37pm
Experts say wandering isn’t rare dumbfounded me. I begin to understand myself better. I agree that water is very soothing especially quiet and dark places. My preference is to be in the library due to its quiet and peaceful feelings. I hate pub due to the sense it gives me. The news really shocks me due to my lack sense of danger because my curiosity drives me. Strange that people feels I am like a small kid. This is absurd. I am so upset my family members do not tell me much. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Fall into the
Dark hollow cave
Fire of jealousy
Fire of hatred
Disfigures inner heart
Poisons the soul
Devoid of sense
Enters the heart
Devoid of logic
Enters the minds
Leading oneself to
Succumb to insanity
Succumb to rage
Driven by rage
Driven by jealousy
Darkness emerges out
Leading oneself to
Epic disaster and
Hurting other hearts.
Avoid! Run away
From the SIPPING
Dark hollow cave!
Before losing mind
Before losing heart
Before too late
Too late to
Reverse the path
Reverse the journey.
Inspiration On: Wednesday, 10 April 2013 from 2:58pm to 2:57pm
Inspiration Ends On: Thursday, 11 April 2013 at 2:03pm
Draw straight line
On the paper.
out of the paper.
Using his pointing finger
Use finger as an eraser
Erasing the straight mark
On the table.
Inspiration On: Monday, 8 April 2013 from 1:40pm to 9:04pm
In the afternoon, my son and I were colouring with crayon. Suddenly, the straight line he drew was out of paper and left mark on the table. I told him to clean it by asking a cloth to wipe it. The reason for me to do so is hoping to instill a sense of responsibility into him. Unexpectedly, he used his finger to rub upon it and the crayon mark slowly disappeared. My eyes popped out in disbelief how he knows such a way.
Dread, Grotesque, Tense, standing fur
Are my strong senses of stage fright
As lights focuses onto stage.
Though showing a calm facade
But my heart is beating furiously with
A trembling tightly closed lips
Awaiting for my role performance reaching completion
With curtains closed the stage
Standing with other performers to give a
Thankful bowing to clapping audiences.
Inspiration On: Wednesday, 11 July 2012 at 12:25am & 2:26am
Revised At: 7:58pm
Suddenly, the words, “Dread, Grotesque” came as I reminisced my first and last stage participation. I can feel and sense uncountable eyes staring at me. I could not stand it so I choose not to continue the theatre play at church. Projecting slides, ushering, sound systems, joining Intercessor ministry were my preference and service in ministry.
At the sight of cakes
Sense of repulsion occurs
Heap of stones in stomach
And my tongue trembles wavely
Followed by downward curve lips
Oh, I’m trying to run away from the cake shop.
Inspiration On: Sunday, 1 July 2012 at 9:20pm
Revised On: Wednesday, 4 July 2012 at 7:22pm
Almost everyday, whenever I bring my toddler out he often goes to the cake shop to buy cakes such as pandan cake rolls, fruit cake rolls, waffles, and many other cakes available in the shop. Yesterday was his second birthday celebration and my family have been eating his birthday cake until today. Therefore, when my husband and I bring our beloved toddler to the nearby shopping centre upon seeing him leading us to the cake shop, my husband and I immediately left the cake shop with me telling him that he had seen the cakes and the one at home is not finished yet.
Eyes feel weary and heavy
Just want to close.
I saw things
As I close my eyes
It’s different from the reality.
Until to the point
I lose my sense of the real world
The feeling of being sucked into a well
And I was transported to the world of dreams.
Inspiration On: Saturday, 13 August 2011 at 11:40PM
Deep buried feelings were kept somewhere.
Painful memories were left unidentified for ten years.
Not ten years, more than that.
Unknowingly, it was planted since young.
It was sowed seed by seed.
Motivation of study is from external source.
Motivation of study only comes from mother.
No inner motivation to do so.
No sense of purpose in life.
No compass to guide me.
Only my parents are my compass.
We followed mother to her chosen destination to give us good future.
We lived in an uncle’s house due to lack of finance.
With my own eyes, I saw my mother being bullied.
I wish to stand strong, but I’m weak.
I’m standing at the corner.
I feel lost.
Angry with my self!
Why am I so slow?
Why am I a weakling?
Leave me alone.
I just wish to be quiet.
A slight headache.
Someone came to my rescue.
It is like a Light enters my heart.
There is a sense of purpose.
I need to stand strong.
But in the Light I can.
A door is closed.
But He opens a window.
A window opens my mind to marriage.
With just a few words through written message,
My past deep feelings were dug out.
No, I think I found out now.
Now I found out what it is.
Found out the root cause to fear of marriage.
It is the very seed that takes root in my heart since young.
It shaped my thinking.
It also shaped my heart.
Expressed on: Friday, 07 November 2008.