Disgusting Smile

Disgust Smile
A flirting moaning laugh
Getting close
Speaking good words
In order to get
What he wants

My body short hair
Stands
Can’t accept such personality


Inspiration On: Monday, 23 November 2015

Suddenly my husband speaks flirtingly. Then he continues that he checks from the internet that it is important to assure not to be always right. Next he asks the office location of my part-time job and my job scope. I feel so disgusted with his flirty smile though I laugh. Because I see people laugh.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

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Jealous Baby Boy

Just a few countable words to grandma
He grabs grandma’s left hand swiftly
His uncle pretends to grab grandma’s right hand
Whining and grabs grandma’s hand stronger
Whining angrily
Impatiently waiting for his uncle to leave grandma
Nobody can replace grandma
Grandma only belongs to him
Grandma is his only
He won’t share her to anyone

Grandma goes out with grandpa
He wailed whiningly
As a sign of disagreement
Grandma only belongs to him
Grandma is his only
He won’t share her to anyone

Instead, he loves his aunt very much
Picks up the telephone
Dial randomly
Speaking imaginatively to his aunt
Anticipating of her visit zealously

On the playground
A toddler older than him hold his dad
He instantly snatches his dad
He disagree instantly for me to be with that toddler
Pissed of that toddler
Target that toddler among others
Whenever that toddler fills the basket with colourful ball
Quietly he presses the button
The button to throw the colourful balls out of the basket
To let that toddler’s collected ball flows out
Repetitively he does so
And continuously does so
Without rest
With a revengeful smile
Oh, that toddler is a boy


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 5 June 2013 At 9:45pm

Seems that my son is jealous of his grandpa and uncle (my younger brother), particularly towards boy and men. He is extremely close to his grandma and loves her the most. That grandma is my mother. He slept beside her from second months to eight months before transferred to his cot. Is this a phase of a toddler’s life? But he is not jealous of my elder sister (his aunt). In fact, he loves her and listens to her more than me.

First to third stanzas are everyday events, but the playground case was the most recent case. I left the playground for toilet after the snatching event. When I returned, I was puzzled of my son to continuously pressed the throw ball button quietly. Upon reaching home, my husband told me what happened when I left the playground for toilet. Though he is a sweet and caring boy, I can’t believe of my son’s jealousy.

The Secret

The wisp in the wallow
The way of fishes swim
The way of a fisherman
The secret of mankind
The pain residing in the heart
The secret of heart
The secret of pain

Do you know me?
Do you care about me?
Do you know me?
You don’t even know me
You don’t even care about me
The real me
Hiding behind the mask
Behind the smiling mask


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 28 May 2013 at 5:35pm
Inspiration Ends On: Wednesday, 29 May 2013 at 4:50pm

A long hair lady sits at the opened window. Eyes glistened with tears. This picture came to my mind as I attempted to understand those who committed suicide. Words echoed in me, “The wisp in the wallow
Do you know me?
Do you know me?
You don’t even know me
The real me”. As I took this further, more words flowed out and echoed to me many times.

After The End Of The Day

After the mid of the day
The sun wave goodbye
The moon takes over.

After the end of the day
The tidied table turns into
Messy table.
A table filled with toys.

After the end of the day
The neat floor turns into
Messy floor.
Floor covered with torn papers and toys.

After the end of the day
He needs to tidy his toys;
He needs to throw papers to recycle bin;
He brushes his teeth;
He changes to pyjamas;
He travels to a dream world
With a smile during sleep.


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 23 January 2013 at 1:25am
Inspiration Ends On: Thursday, 24 January 2013 at 3:46pm

Shopping Toddler

Requesting to carry the shopping bag
Shopping bag of his new clothes
Carrying it like an adult.
Mimicking the adult’s way
Smiling
Grinning
Happy!


Inspiration On: Sunday, 16 December 2012 at 9:09pm
Inspiration Ends On: Monday, 17 December 2012 at 11:27am
Revised On: Tuesday, 18 December 2012 at 4:21pm

After buying two collar T-shirts for my toddler, he requested to carry the plastic bag. The way he carried it looked like a shopping person. Then “shopping toddler” notion came upon because my husband and I only bought those for our son. Our son grows taller and his clothes are lesser.

Sleepy

Head feels heavy
Mind feels sleepy
Heavy eyelids wanting to close
Aching left shoulder
Fighting against drowsiness
Forcing a smile
Weak steps.


Inspiration On: Sunday, 19 August 2012 at 9:25pm
Revision Ends On: Wednesday, 22 August 2012 at 5:08pm

Due drinking herbal tea, I couldn’t sleep for a night. My husband and I brought our toddler out to a shopping mall since afternoon until night. Around 8pm plus, the above symptoms occurred upon me. Seems that my body couldn’t take it anymore. My body just want to hibernate. But I kept on fighting to keep myself awake in order to make the trip enjoyable. Unexpectedly, my husband noticed as were about to go home.