Why Do You?

Why do you come into my life?
Why do you come to mess my life?

Why are you jealous of me?
Your grades are better then mine.
You have smarter brain than I am.

Why are you so suspicious of me?
Where do I give you misunderstanding?
I just want to bless you surprisingly.

Why do you use my weakness to put me down?
I thought you are my confidant.
There is so much thing I want to share with you.

Now
My lips are tight
I can not trust you

Why I can not trust you?
Because you lie to me!
Because you add wounds to my salt!
Make my life like a hell!

Why do you believe the devil’s lies?
Do you love to misjudge others?
Do you still live in your mother’s cloud of influence and decision?

Why do you take advantage of my naiveness?
Why do you take advantage of my confusion?
Why do you love to put your words into others’ mouth?
I can not believe your words anymore.


Inspiration On: Thursday, 21 May 2015 at 12pm

A lot of strange events occur in my life. When I mean well, my mother in law and husband misunderstood me. When I begin to trust him again and confide in him, he betray my trust. Maybe I look highly of him. Every year, my mother in law gave warnings of divorce threats to me. Then my husband always let me to make the decisions. When the result of my decision turns out well, no appreciation. Yet when the result of my decision is wrong, he always pick on me and put me down. I have felt worse. Yet he makes me feel much worse. Despite my parents warning, I feel foolish to pity my mother in law. But she falsely accused my mother and I out of her jealousy. Recently, my husband loves to start to the quarrel and blame me. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Can’t Take It Anymore

These past few days, the weather is very hot.
Bathing only helps temporarily. Why?
Because after the nice cooling shower,
My whole body perspires again.
And sticky some more.

Unbearable!
I really …
Can’t take it anymore.
Really, really
Can’t take it anymore.

I’m going to hide in the library.
It is the only shelter from the hot sun.

But … but…
Walking towards the library
Let the sun to scorch me again.
I feel like a worm running towards a shelter.

Reaching the library is the most comfortable place.
Forget the scorching sun.
The cooling atmosphere makes me feel comfortable.
Wow!
I can concentrate and get inspiration.
Great!
Can’t take it anymore!
I’m fired up to put my inspiration into actions.


Inspiration On: Monday, 09 May 2011 at 10:30pm