Is It A Hope?

Autism test day is nearing
My good friend airs out her grievances let me
Decide to leave or convert to permanent
My heart is prepared to tender resignation
Would a company accept an autistic?

Wishing to do my best as unto my Lord
Share to my friend about certain issue in job
Realising my friend and I are different
She is fast and strong
The Lord blesses me a different strength

Speak to a colleague
Not to assume
Share my experiences in IT and Arts
Clarify I understand each part little bit
Prefers creative job

Show a contact photo
Pointing a creative department
A surprise
Labeled being a good person
Promises to ask for me


Inspiration On: Thursday, 28 April 2016

Thank God and thankful for CMF to mean well in her guidance how to speak to customers who refuses to pay. After lunch, we are waiting for the traffic light to turn green. Her unhappy tone, “You can choose to leave or convert to permanent staff” hurts me. The more I choose to leave earlier. Maybe my cell members are right. It’s hard for good friends to work together. Her words linger in my mind. Do I say anything wrong with a colleague yesterday? I talk to her like talking with a friend. Just now, during the lunch I unknowingly talk with a colleague’s supervisor. She means that next time I shouldn’t talk about the communication workshop in the company. She is a manager and doesn’t have time to go for such event. That hurts and make me cry too. I know she means well. Impossible for her to feel unhappy that I talk with other colleague like a friend. My heart is prepared to resign the job especially with the autism test result.

I print an invoice to post. Suddenly, my colleague asks me how to put the logo into the invoice. I don’t know. I walk towards the man and let him see the printed invoice. Then I explain it is generated from the accounting system. I’m stunned with an alien TID word. Next my colleague walks towards his table and I follow him. He opens his computer and login into the accounting system. He points to the SAP menu. Then he explains that TID refers to SAP menu. I clarify that I don’t have accounting background. I enter into the company because CMF refers and I need a stable job. My experience is in IT and arts. However, I know those areas little bit. I still prefer Creative job. Then he opens the contacts page and show the photo of the man in the Creative department. He’ll ask for me and I thank him to do so. Heavenly Father, thank you for today’s conversation with a colleague. He shows the photo of the person in charge of the Creative department. Then he says he’ll ask for me about the job opportunity in the Creative department. If this is from You, please open the door into the Creative department. In Jesus’ name I ask and pray. Amen.

Lord, where are You going to place me?

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Newcomer Becomes Rubbish Bin

Delegate job is understandable
Due to busy schedule
In order to focus on the important tasks
Attend meetings

Inside I disagree
Delegate job task to the newcomer
Due to frustration towards slow computer
Then play games

Boiling flames due to fatigue
Seek the Lord to distinguish my flames
My good friend sees enormous tasks and remind my job scope
Speaks to the supervisor on my behalf


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 26 April 2016

Suddenly, my supervisor asks me to help my colleague to relieve her from a task. As she guides me along, she is frustrated of her slow computer. Then my supervisor also shows the way and explains it takes half a day to do so. Upon completing it for two hours, I question my colleague’s claim. Because I walk towards my supervisor to ask my pay, my colleague is playing her mobile game. Inside I am boiling. I cry to the Lord on this.

While I am rushing my work, I begin to understand the one whom I replace choose to leave.

In the end, I open my mouth to my friend when she asks about the macro. I don’t have the time to continue the macro automation due to doing too many tasks. Because inside I cry to God that everybody tends to throw their jobs to me. Why am I like the rubbish bin? I am not a rubbish bin. I learn it the hard way. Next time, I need to gently refuse and explain the reason. Inside I cry to the Lord for mentors to guide me in animation and teaching in primary schools.

Therefore, she speaks on my behalf to our supervisor that I am so busy to concentrate on the macro. She sees and understands me of being full loaded. I really appreciate her to explain that I have done the most difficult part. Just left the final simple part of macro.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Needing Intervention

Own friend is away attending meeting
Lunchtime with supervisor and male colleagues
On the way to nearby food stall
Supervisor offers to convert
Temporary to a permanent position
Awaiting me to give green light
Seek my opinion
Let me to do consideration

As expected of such ending
Inside calling unto my Lord
What should I do?
Needing my Lord for intervention
Remembering my vow unto the Lord
Awaiting His green light
For a mentor and a group of team
Executing the business idea


Inspiration On: Monday, 18 April 2016

Thank God and thankful for many events. CMF guides me though she says that she doesn’t fully understand and has past experience in her previous company. Mum and brother ask about my new job. I can only answer as it is. I don’t understand. When I repeat my friend’s words, they also get a shock and speechless.

My ex-mentor to give me the green light to do plugin freelance job offered by her friend who is capable without IT knowledge yet understanding. She also explain not to force myself too much. Do I look that way? How can my ex-mentor tell?

Since CMF goes for meeting, my supervisor asks me out to lunch with other male colleagues. A colleague’s wife works in a graphic design company who receives a long deadline to do the work. That’s amazing. I wish to work there, Lord. My supervisor seeks my opinion to convert me to permanent staff. I respond that I make mistakes and trying to cope. He keeps on comforting me that I cope well. So I instantly respond to let me consider. Inside I am crying to God knowing such an end. Lord, please open the door to the media industry. So that I can fulfill my vow to You. Strangely, my animation lecturer words echoes “when people have confidence in you, they will invest in you”. Then I am reminded of Ha asks me on the children’s media job since I am looking for it. Because I need the experience.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.