Standing Up Again To Be Criticized

The joy of the Lord is improving my thoughts
Watching movie as a family excites me
Only to be criticized
Not being detailed
Without realizing my struggle
Standing up again
Striving to get my structure back


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 16 December 2015

I bring my son out to due to missing the time with him. Doing the butterfly sticker with him. I miss this. After putting him and the maid at the playground, I go to the library to do work. I didn’t able to complete all the task list. This is so frustrating. At home, after dinner I want to complete the resume and portfolio. However, my husband bugs me that our son wants to watch ‘Snoopy Movie’. I relent due to feeling guilty not spending family time enough. Now I begin to see the same pattern continues. No wonder my career suffers. In the end, the resume and portfolio that I need to send by email is at the back burner.

The movie begins from the protagonist who owns A dog named Snoopy. I can relate to Charlie Brown who does his best in everything he does. My son and I enjoy it but not my husband.

Upon reaching home, my parents point out not to tire my son to bring him for movie. It is due to him not taking nap. Then dad shares his findings about the white blood cell in my urine sample in mandarin. The best doctor is gynecologist. Then they advise me to tell to my husband to search it rather than making a big round. I have told him during dinner time. He concludes to let me decide. I decide to find the gynecologist. They keep commenting that I do not listen to them. But this time the Lord has enabled me to be ahead of their concern. Mum tells me to observe my son more due to my maid isn’t doing enough. Then she boasts that she is very detailed. However, I feel she is not so detailed. Why? I have to tell her that the maid ate the food I ate. My brother had a flat feet. They only know it when my brothers and I are in our 20s. I’m trying my best to stand up again. When I begin to stand up again, they begin to make me feel more guilty. They don’t even know I am struggling especially losing my structure. Parents are full of their opinions and think highly of themselves. Still say they understand me. However, they don’t. Well. I learn a lesson from Snoopy movie. He doesn’t bother his friends. Therefore, he can complete his homework essay. My business mentor is right. People’s opinions tend to get the better of me. I shouldn’t be bothered. I care too much for them to get married. The quotes gate is right stating, “You can do 99 things for someone and all they’ll remember is the one thing you didn’t do.” I have enough of this. No wonder my working mood is lost at home.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

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Slogging through the Midnight

Slogging through the midnight
Wishing to alter my sleeping habit
Only to realize
Determination alone isn’t enough
Strong will alone isn’t enough
Mind alone isn’t enough
Own plan will not prevail
Fatigue body in control
Render myself helpless
Entering the dream entrance
Exiting the dream world late morning
Changing sleeping habit fails

Slogging through the midnight
Wishing to alter my sleeping habit
Awaiting dawn
Leave my sleeping bed
Entering into an empty room
Switching on the light
Thinking poetry
Processing my thoughts
Writing poetry
Awaiting dawn
To pass the day sleepily
Possibly to sleep at 9 o’clock night


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 7 January 2014 from 12am to 3:41am

Hoping to change my unhealthy sleeping habit, I resolved to have a sleepless night in order to wake up early at 5am in the morning. Looking through the incomplete poetry to pass the midnight. Most attempts were failed due I fell asleep. This time I try again and see the result. The keyword “slogging through the night” helped me to begin this poetry.

I Don’t Understand

I don’t understand
I don’t understand
Why people laugh at my actions?
I don’t understand
Why people laugh at my words?
I don’t understand
Myself
I really don’t understand
Myself

Do you understand me?
My readers, do you understand me?
Does my style of writing makes you laugh?


Inspiration On: Monday, 24 June 2013 at 7:28pm
Inspiration Ends On: Tuesday, 25 June 2013 at 12:21am

Is It?

What if . . . ?
What will happen . . . ?
What causes this?
Who causes this?
How this does happens?
Which events trigger such behaviour?
Where to find the solution?
Why?
Why?!
Why?!!
Full of WHYs!

Is it an artist’s questions?
Is it an interrogation?
Is it a toddler’s questions?
Is it a child’s questions?
Is it a teenager’s questions?
Is it an adult’s questions?
Is it an engineer’s questions?
Is it a scientist’s questions?
Is it a life’s questions?

Is life full of questions?
Or
Are we questioning life?


Inspiration On: Thursday, 17 January 2013 at 5:40pm
Inspiration Ends On: Saturday, 19 January 2013 at 3pm

Oftentimes, the above questions run through my mind. Many a times, I question of the reason of a certain created things such as power generator, cars, auto tap water, etc. My husband tends to laugh at my questions.