Informants

A sudden intuition
An ending is reaching
Words popping out

Mother and brother
Show the whole situation
Words are taught to speak to him

Seeking prayers from my prayer warriors

Impressions of reading ‘Leadership’
Guides my thoughts and actions
Abrupt controlled emotions
Calms my mind
Final is the calm spirit to settle the discussion


Inspiration On: Sunday, 15 November 2015

I thank the Lord to hear my prayers. After I reach home and take shower, I have the courage to tell my husband I need to dry my hair first. Then the child’s discussion begins in the playroom. The playroom turns into discussion room. He begins that he doesn’t want to disturb my life and his life. His facial expression shows he is planning something. He highlights that the helper wants to return to her hometown. Since I am the child’s mother, he needs to discuss it with me. It is unfair to him to continually trial and error to employ maids. Among the three maids, only the second maid can adjust to my mother’s cleaning standard. He feels that she needs to attend the maid course. However, I explain that mum had been handling the maid until my brother and I are coming to Singapore. Therefore, he suggests to put our son to a full day care and move school. He questions the reason I didn’t tell him about maid issue. I just tell him as it is. I didn’t want want to worry him so I do my best to solve the issue and even call the agency. Or else, he’ll feel frustrating to be disturbed all the time with such issues. He was frustrated when I called him about the toy purchase for our son before. He voiced out to me to make my own decision. The agency man tells me to let her stay for another month. His reply is that the agency man is sweeping the matter under the carpet to shirk responsibility. I’m surprised my brother is such a willing spy. I really appreciate his care and concern due to my lack of social cues.

Amazed courage to confront my mother to stop pushing me to get married and to say I’m not a puppet. Inside I feel so miserable for people often cross over my boundaries. It feels better to tell her. I still care about her.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Loathe Life

Just a few judgmental words
Triggers
The buried excruciating past

As the past haunts deeply
Overcome
The perception towards the speaker

Overcomed with the dread of being
Taken advantage
Auto self-protection switches on

Either flight or fight
Loathing
Own’s foolishness to be too trusting

Another self awaits to
Emerge
Triumphantly build fences of boundaries


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 31 April 2015 at 9pm

My friends and I are facing issues of others entering our boundaries. Foolishly, we are being taken advantage. But we realize it too late. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Crying Out

Here I am
Crying out to
Express 
Myself 
With the right words
With the right vocabularies

Scritch!
Scratch!
Scribbling!
On the paper

Scritch!
Scratch!
Click erase!
On the word document

Oh, Lord! 
Please help me!


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 9 September 2014 at 2:02pm to 2:05pm

When I need to write an email to ask for questions in a software, I am struggling to express myself with the right words. In the previous email, the responder didn’t seem to understand my questions. Living such life is stressful for me though I still persist. This often happen to me and I re-correct the words once or twice then I receive the answer. Hope this time works. Finally, it works. Wishing you all good days and thank you.

Budding Idea

Budding idea sprouts
Growth disrupted
Greedy hearts and minds
Plucked out of its root
For their self-interests
For their own goals
Justifying their motives and actions with
Honey like words
Refusing to pay their dues


Inspiration On: Thursday, 20 March 2014 at 12:45pm
Inspiration Ends On: Monday, 21 April 2014 at 4:23am

The news of ideas being stolen is heartbreaking especially the artists’ life. Though the form of drawings can be protected by law, the idea can easily be stolen. Such respect for the idea generator is not given. Therefore, I likened it to a budding flower Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Indecisive

Thursday, 23 January 2014
1. Live under the decision of others
2. My indecisiveness cost my current situation

Tuesday, 11 February 2014
The cycle of life is continuum

Friday, 14 February 2014
An indecisive freak is lost forever


During attending a talk, the speaker introduced about the Six Word Submission at SmithMag.net and gave the participants papers to write their own six words about life. The above birthed out of my own life experience. Do participate in its creative ways to describe about lives and other stuffs. Enjoy.

Scientist & Artist Similarity

Strange
Weird
Quirky
Crazy
Unfathomable
Odd
Mad
Nuts
Lunatic
Or
Passionate
Enthusiastic
Extraordinary
Think out of the box
Explorative
Adventurous
Perseverance


Inspiration On: Saturday, 2 November 2013 at 3:14pm
Inspiration Ends On: Thursday, 21 November 2013 at 11:16am

Surprisingly, the idea of defining someone different from the common inspired me. “Crazy Mad Nuts” were birth out and concluded, “Passionate Enthusiastic”.

Toxic of Jealousy

Unsightly family harmony
Pick a quarrel
Enjoy fighting
With words
Lashing painful words
Seeking to control
Seeking to destroy
The new family

Jealousy control
Giving evil reign
Upon self
Seeking others’ fault
Blind to own’s fault
No wonder people
Stand afar from
An unrepentant heart
A blind mind
A deaf ear
Assuming others like
The unrepentant heart’s
Hypocritical mindset
Misunderstand others’
Kindness and goodwill

Influence her own good friend
To believe her speech
To believe she is victim
Misunderstand others’
Messages
Wrong perception of others
Kindness and goodwill
Confronting me for shouting
At his good friend
Without searching the truth
Without asking my reason


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 17 July 2013 at 12:34am
Inspiration Ends On: Friday, 19 July 2013 at 6:52pm
Compiled On: Friday, 19 July 2013 at 7:44pm

Reading Darky Blue’s poetry at http://darkyblue.wordpress.com/2013/07/15/how-many-is-too-many/ reminded me of my friend’s case whom i just shared her experience.

Wednesday, 17 July 2013

Her nurse friend whom she confided to diagnose her with depression for the situation I have shared through my previous poetry for her. Her dad who recently told her that if she didn’t explain the truth she will be miserable and people will continually bully her. Because she felt that it was useless for her to say so since her husband won’t believe her words and he believed his mother’s words more than her. What’s the point for her to say more? Wasting her time. She didn’t want her marriage to be broken. Her nurse friend helped her to pray and queried whether she ever eat a medicine from a doctor. Yes was her reply, but it had stopped. So her friend suggested to her to see again to let the medicine help her to relax. Her friend and I also don’t want to see her to be taken away to the mental hospital.

After many requests for her husband’s contact, she hesitantly wrote down her husband’s number with trembling hands. Her nurse friend who called her husband that she was with his wife, he was happy. Unexpectedly, her husband was shocked with her nurse friend who divulged she had suicidal attempts. Alarmed not to worry her husband, she tried to stop her nurse friend for saying so. But it was too late. He immediately rushed to fetch her. Her nurse friend comforted her that her husband still care for her.

Sending her to the mrt station to meet her husband, she seemed reluctant to follow her husband. But her nurse friend introduced herself and asked him to love her and protect her. He willingly agreed. Holding hands, he gently explains the reason he scolded her for giving the feeling his mother was unwelcomed. All she thinks are to move her brother’s things out of the room, but expressed it wrongly due to thinking visually with wrong words. Her father had discussed the problem with him amicably and resolved to let him be the middle person. If there is unhappiness, his mother and her dad will go to him. This is due to her dad is worried for her not being able to convey the message correctly. Peace is restored. Since he had apologized to mother and dad, he hoped her to apologize to his mother. When she was going to apologize, the phone rang. It was her sister in law confronting her for shouting. Angered by those words and realizing her mother in law’s dishonesty, she went to bathroom to pray for God’s help to forgive her mother in law just as He had forgiven her. Having showered helped to cool down and apologize to her mother in law. Shocked with her reactions to immediately hug her and also apologize for her own fault.

Thursday, 18 July 2013

Being alone in her house, she felt peaceful and can concentrate on her freelance work. Her parents went out. Her mother in law schedules her son’s playground at her brother in law’s house. While her husband and her holding hands together guiding the way, the helper observed her mother in law looked very angry, instead of being happy for her son. Her helper told her in the middle of the night before sleep. She had been wondering why her mother in law was so jealous of her.

Friday, 19 July 2013

Yesterday, she had fixed an appointment with her previous neurology. Today, her neurology told the same thing to her to tell her husband the truth what she had been through with her mother in law. The truth will let her husband to think. Not her to do so all the time. If she continues to keep quiet, she will be miserable. He also reminded her of the wedding woes to share to her husband her troubles. Unhappy with this, she had been wondering and didn’t wish to hurt her mother in law.

Everyone’s Basis of Statement through Analysis from her previous talk. Her mother in law went through divorce at the age of 30 for her husband left her for another woman. Her husband’s siblings rebuked and blamed her for being too brawling. So he couldn’t stand her.

But my friend feels what that has got to do with her. What does she has to make her mother in law jealous?

Tongue’s Traffic Light

Red light appears
Brake tongue pedestal
Time to keep quiet
Red light dispels

Orange light appears
Slight brake tongue
Time to warn confidant
Orange light disappears

Green light appears
Running tongue
Ticking with certain time
Short period to express words
Before green light hides

Return to orange light
Back to red light


Inspiration On: Saturday, 13 July 2013 from 12:49am to 1:07am

The idea of keeping our mouths quiet at a period of time prevents us from coming trouble. And the time to warn those who needs warning and when to say out our opinions. Traffic light seems that the best analogy and metaphor. Upon writing it down, the above poetry flowed out of my imagination.