Crying Autistic

Living in denial
Hating my existence
Unable to accept
The truth and fact
Deep inside me

Autism is the
Label given to me
Coming from my family members
Many time I deny it
Only to surrender and learn to
Embrace autism in my life

Knowing the angst of my pain
But I choose to smile to others
Showing the brighter side of my true self
Wishing to cheers the broken-hearted
Yet others tend to
Break my heart
And
Take advantage
Of my kindness
Only to land myself
Vulnerable
Miserable
Feeling the awful pangs of hurt
From all the
Pre-judgements

When my world is closing
You come into my life with your own agenda
Soothing words to uplift me
Then you hurt me four times
Pushing me forward three step backs
Then pull me backward four step backs
Why are you playing with my innocence?!
Why are you entering into my world?
Giving me FALSE hopes
Only to DASH it!
Enough of your mental game!
Stop!
My Lord sees it and warns me of your cunningness
To PREVENT me from further hurt!
This IS the FENCE of my BOUNDARIES!


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 21 April 2015 at 12am

These are the summary of my experiences birthed in poetry. I thank my Lord and Saviour for the right words to SHOUT it out. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

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Stop Testing My Patience

Stop! Stop!
Please stop
Please stop
Your nuisance
Please stop
Testing my patience

Please stop
Hitting
Please stop
Kicking
Please stop
Bullying
Please stop
Your nonsense

Please stop
Bullying in school
Bullying in enterprise
Please
Respect
Care
Practice compassion
In this world

What will you do?
If you are in my position?
What will you do?


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 26 June 2013 at 10:03am
Inspiration Ends On: Sunday, 14 July 2013 at 2:51pm

I can’t stand a person who tried to find fault. Every time I’m the one who tried to avoid quarrel, they are trying to quarrel with my family. So I have been feeling and wishing them to stop testing my patience.

Left Behind

Lost among the planets
Lonely planet
Isolated planet
Alone in the universe
Left to itself to survive
Striving to live
Struggling
Will it live?
Let’s see
Its survival


Inspiration On: Tuesday, 18 June 2013 from 5:23pm to 5:28pm

Being inspired with the book cover by Penny at http://thewhyaboutthis.com/2013/06/17/join-the-writing-fun-lets-write-a-book-report/, this is a fun creative writing. The first two lines birthed out upon looking and observing Penny’s book cover. Enjoy.

Assumer

Assume! Assume!
More assumptions!
Leading to
Misunderstandings
Cover the whole world.

Two!
Two types of reactions
Towards assumptions.
Either jump to conclusion
Or seek to clarify.

Jumping to conclusion
Without searching the truth
Strife and anger fills the house
A talebearer,
A whisperer,
A backstabber
An accuser
Fire spreads
From houses to neighbourhood
From neighbourhood to cities
From cities to provinces
From provinces to countries.
Unwilling to listen properly
Listen with a filter cover the ears
Believe in a lie
Believe in own false notion.

Seeking clarification
Though assuming
Attempting to remove
Remove the filter from own ears
Thirst for the truth
Immediacy meeting the person
Query the person
Seeking to clarify
Seeking peace
Prevent fire
Extinguish fire.


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 15 May 2013 from 1:47am to 12:23pm

According to my friend, her mother in law jumped to conclusion and accuses her mother. My friend is very upset. My friend is someone who tends to seek a matter and to clarify her assumption by going to the person directly and ask.

Either Or

Either
Attract attention
Or
Being the centre of attraction

Either
Chase
Or
Being chased

Either
Loved
Or
Being loved

Either
Jealous
Or
Being jealous-ed

Either
Hate
Or
Being hated

Either
Kill
Or
Being killed

Either
Hurt
Or
Being hurt

Either
Save
Or
Being saved

Full of either
This world is
Full of either choice.


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 27 February 2013 at 5:21pm
Inspiration Ends On: Friday, 1 March 2013 at 11:45am

The above poetry is based upon my observation in life and how it affects different people’s opinions.

Whisper Out Of The Dream World

Whisper . . . Whisper . . .
Whisper . . . Whisper . . .
Oh, where are the whispers from?
Locating it until
My dream world fades away
I am transported to reality
With dry lips
With thirsty tongue
With growling stomach.

As I walk wobbly to the door,
Then the whisper gradually ascends to noise.
As I opened the door,
Obviously, someone is talking to panda.
Oh, my mother in law is talking with him.

Sleepily, I say “good morning”.
Drowsily, I gulp a cup of milk.
Looking at the clock.
Oh, it is 7am plus.
Wondering won’t he be late for work.
Then I return to my dream world.


Inspiration On: Wednesday, 23 January 2013 at 11pm
Inspiration On: Thursday, 24 January 2013 at 1:01am

Yesterday, my mother in law came from faraway place and stay with my husband and me to see her beloved grandson. Unexpectedly, I was awakened around 7 O’clock in the morning due to talking voices. Later on, when my helper told me at night that she heard my mother in law was talking non-stop. Normally, he will leave home at 7am, but he left at 7am plus after I entered my room.