A sudden intuition
An ending is reaching
Words popping out
Mother and brother
Show the whole situation
Words are taught to speak to him
Seeking prayers from my prayer warriors
Impressions of reading ‘Leadership’
Guides my thoughts and actions
Abrupt controlled emotions
Calms my mind
Final is the calm spirit to settle the discussion
Inspiration On: Sunday, 15 November 2015
I thank the Lord to hear my prayers. After I reach home and take shower, I have the courage to tell my husband I need to dry my hair first. Then the child’s discussion begins in the playroom. The playroom turns into discussion room. He begins that he doesn’t want to disturb my life and his life. His facial expression shows he is planning something. He highlights that the helper wants to return to her hometown. Since I am the child’s mother, he needs to discuss it with me. It is unfair to him to continually trial and error to employ maids. Among the three maids, only the second maid can adjust to my mother’s cleaning standard. He feels that she needs to attend the maid course. However, I explain that mum had been handling the maid until my brother and I are coming to Singapore. Therefore, he suggests to put our son to a full day care and move school. He questions the reason I didn’t tell him about maid issue. I just tell him as it is. I didn’t want want to worry him so I do my best to solve the issue and even call the agency. Or else, he’ll feel frustrating to be disturbed all the time with such issues. He was frustrated when I called him about the toy purchase for our son before. He voiced out to me to make my own decision. The agency man tells me to let her stay for another month. His reply is that the agency man is sweeping the matter under the carpet to shirk responsibility. I’m surprised my brother is such a willing spy. I really appreciate his care and concern due to my lack of social cues.
Amazed courage to confront my mother to stop pushing me to get married and to say I’m not a puppet. Inside I feel so miserable for people often cross over my boundaries. It feels better to tell her. I still care about her.
Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Yoshiko 