Overwhelmed Meltdown to Burn Out – A Poem – Guest Blog

I have been following AnonymouslyAutistic blog. Recently, I have been busy with part-time work and attempt to manage my time but to no avail. Burnt out and meltdown have been occurring on and off. An autistic shares his life experiences. Thus I feel challenged to organise my meltdown experiences. I feel the joy of sharing my experiences to the world and to bring awareness to others.

Anonymously Autistic

A stone in my throat
Left and right brains beat swiftly
Needles prick my nerves
Tingling nerves in whole teeth
Mind blank out
Numbness envelope whole head
Tears well up turning to
Uncontrollable tears draining my face
Dripping down my chin
Unintentional wrong
Lead into drown into the abyss of sea
Struggling to swim up
Heavy stone body pushing me deeper
As my hand lifting upwards
During daytime
Sudden loss of energy at my hands
Palms lose strength to grip
Noises
Every light footsteps
Pulling of chairs
Shouts
High pitched voices
Distract my focus
Messages
Apps
Notification tones
Breaks my concentration to pieces
Awakened from sleep
Heartbeat rhythms pounding faster
Pulling nerves at my rear skull
Tingling nerves and pulling backwards
In the temple of my head
Explosive pressure in the top of my head
Either in my half-right head
Or in my half-right head
At times squeezing my whole…

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Girls’ Invisible Autism

Internalized feelings
Silence with unfamiliar people
Attraction towards pets
Being lost in own world
Termed as being shy

In silence
Overwhelmed with sensory overload
Anxiety and fear deep inside
Masking with expressionless face
Pouring out my hearts to Jesus
Seeking to overcome own challenges
Observing and smile to babies and pets


Inspiration On: Saturday, 22 April 2017 at 8:11am

I divulge my autism issue with friends whom I feel comfortable with. My struggle is in communication. Socializing with strangers is not a problem. It depends on whom I feel comfortable to talk to. My friends label me as being introvert and shy. Am I shy? That’s my question.

I do not understand myself. Seeking to have self-understanding. Last year, the autism diagnosis had tested me positive. It created mixed feelings – fearful, upset, relief. “Why You Cannot See My Daughter’s Autism?” news help me to have a better understanding of myself.

AFCC Super Short Story Competition

Our dear friend, fellow website ministry contributor is submitting for writing competition. Will you all please read her personal story by visiting the given site?

Thank you for all your support.

Tienny

Currently, I am submitting to AFCC 2017 Super Short Story. Will you please read and comment it at https://facebook.com/AFCCSingapore/?_rdr#. Then please click like if you like the story. Really appreciate it. Please search #AFCCSuperShortStory. My story title is “A Tiny Heart”. 20 March is the deadline.

If can’t find it, alternatively please go to my Facebook post that have the direct link to it.

Some people have been telling me that they can’t find my submission.

Please go to http://www.facebook.com/TheTienny. Then click the photo section in order to reach the direct link of AFCC 2017. Appreciate for you all to leave feedback on the feelings my story give to you. The instructions are as per screenshot. Thanks for your time.

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Autism is a Controversial Issue – People Fighting Online

I don’t like to be treated with pity. Therefore, in the physical world, I choose not to divulge my autism. So that they can treat me like normal people. However, I disagree with those people with nasty words.

Now, I can accept my autism. After reading a book to understand myself, I can accept my autism and treat it as a gift.

I’m glad to be able to meet Autistic Anna to enable to have a better self-understanding in terms self-care in mental, physical and psychological health.

Personally, I agree with Anna in her last paragraph that I can’t reason with people who only cares about their own opinions.

Anonymously Autistic

I left Facebook a while ago because I kept getting sucked into the arguments between parents and Autistic people, Autistic people and the anti-VAX movement, and medical professionals and Autistic people. Today I logged back in and was quickly reminded why I left.

The first thing thing that upsets me is that all of these people think they know more about Autism than Autistic people, as if our first hand experiences are of little or no value. This is often parents but can also be medical professionals and organic health nuts (I eat organic but these people are extreme).

Cure culture fanatics telling us we are sick for wanting to stay Autistic – sick for wanting to stay the way we were born. Parents telling us we don’t understand because we are not like their child (some of us WERE at one point and have worked hard to improve as…

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Why Some Companies Are Trying to Hire More People on the Autism Spectrum

It is a great news for the autistic people stated in the Why Some Companies Are Trying to Hire More People on the Autism Spectrum news. 

The news also help me to understand the reason I behave in a certain way 

  1. Looking at data. Now I enjoy studying human behaviours and artistic endeavours. Now reading data bores me. 
  2. Enjoy mathematical concepts and even artistic concepts
  3. Attention to detail
  4. Focus over long periods of time, and looking at large bodies of information and spotting anomalies