Testimony Turn


Extreme encouragement through testimonies
So delighted in hearing the Lord’s goodness

Two testimonies speak in my heart

Being appalled in my cell leader’s life
Dealing with depression
Living in denial of her husband’s death
Minister to the depressed
Willingness to step into leadership
Believing the Lord to provide
The Lord provides

Attempting to testify on the Lord’s providence
With the right words
Before my turn
Still can’t find the right words
Until my turn
Tossing the microphone away
Only to be passed back to me
By faith I speak
Seeking God for His guidance to communicate
Forced to admit my autism
Testifying God’s strength and goodness
In every area of my weaknesses

A cell member in another cell group
Whom I ever be her advocate
Towards her cell leader
Who misunderstood her faith for missing
Cell group and church services
Due to being bullied in her workplace
Testify the Lord to hear her every prayers
That shows the Lord’s burden in my heart to be her advocate

Enter into reflection mode
What is God doing in my life?
Being a leader
Being an advocate
Being pushed to the frontline
Without realizing it
A reluctant leader who only want God
Who enjoys to be a follower attitude


Inspiration On: Saturday, 2 January 2016

In the CG thanksgiving party, I feel so encouraged with other people’s testimonies. SS’s testimony catches my heart so much. she deals with depression due living in denial of her husband’s death that happened 5 years ago. Upon acknowledging her husband’s death, she is willing to step into leadership and let the Lord to provide the fishes. Then she helps Josephine to deal with her depression and begins the cell group for her. She is surprised by Pli’s strong commitment to open her house for the woodlands CG. Her testimony speaks into my heart. Yes! One day I need to step into leadership in my household, job and cell group too.

When it comes to my turn, I just want to pass it. But the microphone is passed to me to testify about God’s goodness for year 2015. Because I am caught unprepared and can’t find the right words. I felt so humbled to admit my autism until I begin to acknowledge it. I testify the Lord’s strength and goodness in a lot of areas of my weaknesses especially in my expressions in writing. My business mentor’s feedback that my writing and I are like two different persons. I hate to admit that I run away from home. How the Lord changes my parents’ perceptions for me to enter workforce. I can’t stand the way others look at me. Deep inside, I feel awful. LT’s eyes look teary and full of compassion. For year 2016 goals in the Lord is for His wisdom and discernments when to say no, improve my communication skills and get a job.

Jenn (who can’t make it to Mako’s door to door evangelism) testifies the Lord’s goodness to hear her every cry. Then in the middle of the night I text message Mako, “Thank God to hear Jenn’s testimony. As expected that Jenn is still trusting in the Lord and the Lord hears her every cry.”

I’m surprised of LT to announce the coming marriage encounter in April. I’m awaiting for it. SS encourages me to bring my husband. I hope he can truly be saved.

When the clock struck 3 o’clock, the party ends and I am ready to go to the airport. Unexpectedly, Mako’s husband and her are giving me a lift. Ann also takes the same car with me. As we wait for them, she talks with me. In the car, she compliments me for being smart. I feel so uplifted and being honest with her that she hasn’t seen the real me. My business mentor has seen the real me until explains to me to work first. It is due to half understand about business and my financial constraints.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

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