Guided through People

Ex-mentor and another friend
Celebrate my birthday
Treating lunch
Share about Chinese herbs eating procedure
Share more about my son and myself
Dyslexia symptoms
Ex-mentor shares about her parents

Next destination
Business mentor’s house
Passing the conditioner to her
Impresses in delegation
Massaging my head acupoints
Speak about her values
Guide me in the structure to speak situations

Inspiration On: Sunday, 14 March 2016

Grateful for my mum to bring my son out to meet her younger brother. My ex-mentor and my friend celebrate my birthday. I feel comfortable with them and share more about my son’s handwriting issue. Ex-mentor can immediately detect it as dyslexia and need to have immediate intervention. I also share that my hand is more dominant. I write with my left hand because I feel comfortable to write from right to left. I get scared because I write all the word in a reverse order.

Thankful for business mentor to massage and press my head acupoints. Then I get to know her better. She is concerned for my spiritual well-being. She initiated to read yesterday’s devotion about Jethro told Moses to delegate and give his suggestions. And I need to pray out. She also read the job scope about the interview and explain I don’t understand. She massages people depend on their situation. Those who are wealthy, she charges her normal price. However, she doesn’t charge those who are financially poorer. I feel so speechless. That reminds me of my fifth uncle who is a doctor. Is God showing the true colours of everybody to me? God tests business mentor and I. She casts out the spirit of poverty in me. Then I share that yesterday there is a soft knock at my dad’s room. Almost misunderstand my son. As she clarifies, she corrects the structure of my speech. I should begin with, “I was in my dad’s room. Then there is soft knock at my door.”

I’m relieved to be able to talk about my strength through my satisfied accomplishment to repair computer despite my programming background. I am also reminded of emergenetics profile and state my three strongest test – analytical/logical, structural, and creativity. Glad to remember my brother has taught me to say especially the willingness to learn.

I wish to contribute and be part of God’s kingdom. How is this temporary AR Officer can lead me to the media business vision God gives?

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Appreciation and Collaboration

Zealous to contribute to God’s kingdom
In the body of Christ
Cell leader’s daily verse proclamation
I put it into graphic
She misunderstands my good intention
Feel pressurized to learn
Twice I need to explain my contribution
Speechless of her misunderstanding
And realizing my slowness too
Attune to realize my closer
Connection towards
Older generation
Rather than
Younger generations

Meeting a senior citizen business owner
Settling her book cover design
Appreciate her gratitude to
Treat lunch and dessert
For my help
Throughout the collaboration
I enjoy our
Personal interaction
Clearing misunderstanding
Finalize the design according to her vision
Improve it to make it more astounding

Inspiration On: Friday, 29 January 2016

Out of enthusiasm, I continue to put SS’s scripture proclamation into picture. She seems pressurized, “Thanks, butI have not time to do this at the moment.”

“You are welcome. All those are for us to keep and proclaim besides of writing it down. That’s the best reminder. That’s why I put it into graphic. Please don’t misunderstand me.” I answer abruptly.

She replies, “Will learn from you after new year.”

“No worries. Because I have been doing this for my ministry work and for others as well to edify one another.” I attempt to explain my contribution.

Unexpectedly, she compliments me, “No worries , it is very useful and helpful and very thoughtful of you. I would like to learn from you. Thank you very much.”

“You are most welcome. Just a small gesture. We have different giftings to complement each other. So I want to do my part.” I explain my part.

Again she thanks me, “You are most welcome.”

“You are most welcome.” I answer appreciatively.

Then I go and meet BL to work on her book cover. In the end, I design the article and appreciate her honesty to say to ask other people to contribute in her book cover design too. I don’t mind to be shared from equity based. She willingly renders her help to do editing. I enjoy our collaboration in the designing part.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Lead The Way

O Lord
Lead me to the business partner
Lead the business partner to me
For the expansion of Your kingdom
Seeking Your kingdom and righteousness
Protect my family

Inspiration On: Sunday, 24 January 2016

While in the bus to the zoo, I spot there are two doves amongst the gray pigeons on the vast grasses. I feel so delighted and comforted that I am not going to be alone in the business anymore. Lord, I am hoping to find the business partner. Lord, please lead the person to me and lead me to the person.

At night, my husband calls to his hometown and connect our son to talk to his mother. Whenever he presses the telephone loudspeaker, my husband raises his voice to our son. Today, he switches on the music and let our son talk on the phone. Is he playing politics again? Normally, he doesn’t switch on music. Is something amiss?

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Unbelievable Call

Many Different people mention
Successful autistics are intelligent
Reflection mood
Even my business mentor also highlight

Seeing own weaknesses
With magnifying glass
Weighs me down
Slower than others in

That does not deter me
From standing up again due to
A cause I belief in Jesus
An unbelievable call
A higher call

Inspiration On: Tuesday, 19 January 2016

Uncle WY calls me in the morning before I leave the house. He is worried and concerned about my well being especially in my own self-limiting beliefs. I don’t feel I am smart. I am slower than others and I just want to do my best. Strangely, my business mentor and the my cell members shares that autistics are smart – Newton and other famous people. What is God doing in my life?

A sister in Christ sends me about Samson and Luke 22:42 with the title ‘Who is my master? Me or God?’

Luke 6:46 “Why do you call me Lord, Lord, and do not do what I say?”

Samson – a man with great strength but a weakness for women. God set him apart and empowered him to deliver Israel from her enemies. But instead of chasing after God, he chased after girls. What a waste of God-given potential and abilities.

Our weakness may not be women. It may be other things that hinder our commitment to God.

Today, invite God to be Lord of our will and decisions. Luke 22:42 “not my will but Thine be done.”

I feel so speechless.

I can’t stand the noises. So I ask business mentor whether she knows any local shop that sells noise proof ear plug. No reply from her. Suddenly, I have the feeling to ask WC. I am amazed he knows the local shop to get it for a cheaper price. Suddenly, he text messages me, “My condo at is empty these few days. U can use it to do ur work in a quiet environment.” I feel so grateful, “Thank you for your kind offer.” However, I feel uncomfortable to accept the offer because he is a guy. He asks me, “Well are u interested.” I feel bad and respond, “Though I am interested, no need. You can rent it to earn income.”

The more I read on the book titled ‘Confronting Jezebel’, the more I hate satan and the more I am determined to fight back against his scheme.

Finally, I have completed my portfolio. I send the project portfolio that IC gave and the children’s illustration book. Most touch on character designs. Wow! I am surprised how God works. Lord, please open the doors into the animation industry through DK. I sense God’s presence in my heart.

Then I work and complete the compilation for my animated words titled, “thoughts into actions”. I feel so delighted, do some writing and upload it. I am surprised God works through IC to point me to a character designs though it looks dark. Not my style and type. I feel so pricked on the character profile and design for my cavity monsters based on ranking. Furthermore, I need to type the scripts into celtx. I feel so happy to fast one meal. I feel much better and can sense His presence.

When I am teaching my son, he asks for his money that I keep into the bank. I reply that he can get it when he grows up. Now is to earn the interest first. Suddenly, it dawns upon me about my Abba Father who let me to be disappointed to make the business work. When I see the expenses list, the spending is more than the amount I am going to put as business capital. I feel so speechless.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Concern in Action

Being concerned of her safety
Quietly move to another side towards the road
Only to be interrogated
“Are you trying to be a hero?”

Desiring to protect her
Along the road full of cars passing by
“I can take care of myself.”
Do I do anything wrong?

Inspiration On: Friday, 1 January 2016

I just don’t understand my business mentor. Why did she told me off yesterday? “Are you trying to be a hero?” I just don’t understand her. I just walk near the road. I want to protect her from the car. I’m being concerned of her well being. Her reply is, “I can take care of myself.” Please tell me where did I do wrong? Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Hard Truth

Compliments my writing
Questioning my inconsistency
In writing and in person

Speechless and wonder
What is God doing?
My Lord, what are Your doing?

Throwing hard truths about
People’s true colours
Enable me to see them as it is

When to walk away
Observing the approachable moment
And red light

All these needs
Strong relationship with God
Trusting in His hands of protection

Inspiration On: Thursday, 31 December 2015

My business mentor is concerned about my marriage. She suggests to go for marriage counselling and the telling me not to be rigid. She hasn’t understand the whole situation. I showed my affection to him by implementing my home church teaching to give him a kiss after quarrel. He felt uneasy reminding him Judas Iscariot who was ready to betray Jesus. However, I choose to keep quiet about it. Then she accompanies ne to meet someone about project. I reveal I am more interested in permanent. After the meeting, she feels that it is a waste of her time. Then she reveals the truth about the advisor we ever met. He wants to make love with her. Since then, she stops meeting him. Oh no! Why doesn’t she tell me earlier? This reminds me of my parents who keep me in the dark about my husband’s family members. When I was going to get married at Sabah, his sister left my parents and siblings. Then they walk by themselves and spot her in the McDonald with her son. Recently, my parents began to divulge it. However, they respect the sanctity of marriage. No wonder, I suffer the consequences due to my naivety. I also doesn’t want my husband to burn in hell for the sake of accompanying his mother. I choose to speak by faith from the proclamation paper that Sherrley Seah gives. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Outreach Meeting

I feel delighted to have lunch with RR and RC. Then we have a photo. RL feels so happy that I look feminine and look good in it. Then I share their response to my business mentor and SS. They agree it’s good to look feminine. That’s me.

I’m shocked to learn that the outreach meeting discussion to share the gospel at TP is tonight. After meeting the career coach (FT), I quickly rush to TP. While waiting for MK, I do my best in my resume. When she arrived, she buys me a cup of lime juice. Then I talk to her about my resume and go with her to her house. We go to the designated place and wait for others. She buys me a cup of milo. To our disappointments, none come. Then I also begin to share about the Social entrepreneurship idea and my business mentor becomes my business partner. She also prays about it and for God’s anointing upon my broken common sense. Then she sends me to the nearest bus stop.

Initiative Motivation

Desire to help
Motivated to improve
Stepping up to make an initiative
Suggestions and doings
More than the required work
Improve the business presentation

Inspiration On: Friday, 13 November 2015 at 11:47pm

Thank God and appreciate my new boss’ patience and guidance. She lets me understand the whole picture and reveal to me she is in the planning department. I begin to understand and see the big picture. When I see her, I see myself working non-stop and not care of my body rest.

My business mentor signs me up for the women’s entrepreneurship for the U.S. Embassy talk in four days time. I feel so shocked because that is my children’s book deadline and to meet BL. After I think through, I will ask her to give me the news. I need to complete the children’s book especially the animation script. Thank God for the courage to tell her.

I feel so happy for my new lady boss to appreciate my creativity. I begin to have the courage to share my suggestion to improve the package posting to give the customers a good impression. Strange for my business mentor to come into the picture dictating the entrepreneurs to exercise and eat healthily.

Wish you all have good days and thank you.

Make Up Foundation Looks Confusion

Address my business mentor
As beauty consultant
To ask about
Make up foundation questions
With natural ingredients
Without harmful ingredients

My purpose is to
Cover up any bruises
Any minor wounds

The beauty consultant gives the
Keywords to google
Concluding my unnatural look

Inside is full of confusions
Praising my wedding photo
Now feedback unnatural look

Inspiration On: Thursday, 12 November 2015 at 11:20pm

When I observe my friend’s dry hands (whom I admire her courage) and the need to cover my bruise, make-up foundation comes into my mind. Then birth out the poetry for my encounter with my business mentor. Wish you all have good days and thank you.

See My Future In The Mirror

Who do I see?
I see her gentleness
I see her love and care towards
Those who are doing
Labour work

Who do I see?
I see her encouragement
I see her well treatment and motivations towards
Those who are doing
Labour work

Who do I see?
I see a strong leader who work hard
I see a strong leader who cares the safety of
Those who are doing
Labour work

Who do I see?
I see a strong leader who spreads herself thin
I see a strong leader who is physically weak
Thus often fall sick
Need recuperation

A compassionate strong leader
Who needs to care own physical strength
Expression of admiration and gratitude to my Lord and Saviour
Deepen my walk in the Lord

Inspiration On: Thursday, 29 October 2015 at 10pm

At night, YY (the finance department leader who employs me as a part-time admin) comes into my mind. Her personality attracts me. Her gentleness and caring towards the employee. Her actions speaks a lot about her being a strong Christian though she has a weak body. She has a lot of unseen documents to clear. It’s like seeing myself in the future. So I confide to my business mentor, “YY has a lot of unseen documents to clear. I never expect that. Come to think of it. This helps me reflect on myself. I have been stretching myself too thin.” Her reply is only word, “FOCUS”. My response is, “Oh yes. Focus. No wonder I make a lot of mess with too many commitments and tasks. May we continually pray for each other.” She responds, “Certainly.” No wonder my mental and physical are affected badly due to being overworked and pressed from many sides. Wish you all have good days and thank you.