Living in denial
Hating my existence
Unable to accept
The truth and fact
Deep inside me
Autism is the
Label given to me
Coming from my family members
Many time I deny it
Only to surrender and learn to
Embrace autism in my life
Knowing the angst of my pain
But I choose to smile to others
Showing the brighter side of my true self
Wishing to cheers the broken-hearted
Yet others tend to
Break my heart
Of my kindness
Only to land myself
Feeling the awful pangs of hurt
From all the
When my world is closing
You come into my life with your own agenda
Soothing words to uplift me
Then you hurt me four times
Pushing me forward three step backs
Then pull me backward four step backs
Why are you playing with my innocence?!
Why are you entering into my world?
Giving me FALSE hopes
Only to DASH it!
Enough of your mental game!
My Lord sees it and warns me of your cunningness
To PREVENT me from further hurt!
This IS the FENCE of my BOUNDARIES!
Inspiration On: Tuesday, 21 April 2015 at 12am
These are the summary of my experiences birthed in poetry. I thank my Lord and Saviour for the right words to SHOUT it out. Wish you all have good days and thank you.
Being in his dad’s carry
Outstretch his body to hug me closely
We swiftly carefully leaving lift
A cute sweet baby boy
Hugging me wishing warmth from my hug
Reminiscing infanthood in my embrace
His dad holds him strongly
He clings onto my neck grappling strongly
Looking like train track line
Inspiration On: Monday, 29 July 2013 at 10:43pm
Inspiration Ends On: Tuesday, 30 July 2013 at 12:05am
This event occurred while we returned home from a nearby mall for a walk.
Suddenly the world seems spinning
Spinning to the point of
My body lose its balance
Balance of stand still
Balance to walk
Then I realize
My head is spinning
My mind immediately goes blank
Quickly, I held the table in front of me
Closing my eyes
A few seconds later
Everything returns to normal
Inspiration On: Wednesday, 7 March 2012 at 3pm plus
Revised On: Thursday, 8 March, 2012 at 10:55pm
The first sentence came when I felt giddy at the food court. All I can do is to quickly find something to hold on to. Thank God for the wisdom what to do. So I immediately take sweet according to what my mother ever told me what I should do if there is a sudden dizzy.
Eyes feel weary and heavy
Just want to close.
I saw things
As I close my eyes
It’s different from the reality.
Until to the point
I lose my sense of the real world
The feeling of being sucked into a well
And I was transported to the world of dreams.
Inspiration On: Saturday, 13 August 2011 at 11:40PM